Fatty boom ba

Spent the afternoon at uni -getting zero study done, it was such a bright day and I was so bored with my holidays that I thought I should try to cook myself a proper dinner, candle lights and everything! LOL... That and also cause I'm kind of sick of frozen dinners, migoreng, ramen, bowls of cereal and cartons of Up and Go. Once again I'm starting to miss my parents like last time... What would I do without them?

Spent half an hour in Woolworths trying to figure out what to buy, and deciding whether I should get mint, oregano or thyme. Not that it even made a difference.. haha. I got mint incase you were wondering.

Man, I had the most beautiful pasta pictured in my head.. tried to re-create it.. but no, it never turns out right :( But you know, NOT BAD for someone who doesn't cook. Tis why my future husband will be a great one :D

So you see, I'm happy it turned out alright looking! Obviously proud of it or else I wouldn't show you guys!! Haha... So awesome yeeeee? Oh!! And I also put an egg underneath. So when you eat through it you'll find a nice egg, sunny side up! ;) SURPRISE! haha

Although this dinner did take me a long time to make.... gah. And so left me 5 minutes to wolf the whole thing down before going to baddy. Which was fun by the way.. Saw old friends that I hadn't seen for aaaaay-ges.

Although a couple did make comments on how I've gotten fatter. D:

Guess whatever I'm doing now isn't working out. LOLOL... So instead of that making me even more determined >:), I got home and made myself migoreng.

A-grade Finals tomorrow... WISH ME LUCK PLEASE :)

I'm no superman

aaaand Holidays have officially begun! Like.. two days ago. Awesome sauce!? INDEED, YO!

Pubcrawl was quite good, I must say, despite the more than shitty pubcrawl shirt. LOL Dent people know how to party ;)

But then again, you can't have a good night without some kind of drama.. and let me tell you, drama happened. -_- And so now, shiz just got a whole lot more complicated.. Ahh.. every ending seems to lead to new complications.. new issues.. new problems. Enough talk about that though.. can worry about that later.. maybe.. Sorry for the vagueness people! I know its annoying. LIKE YO FACE! But I'm sure I be raging about it on this blog soooooner or later.

Such a noob looking photo, but for some reason its the only photo on my phone. I swear I took more than one.. I guess not. Gah.. My friend Vivian by the way, If you're interested ;)

Last night I went to an 18th, Happy 18th Inam Muhammad! If you don't know which of my Highschool friends Inam is, he's the tall tree-like person. LOL Easy to spot cause the rest of us are so god-damn short! Asians, chh. Didn't join them at Wasai for dinner, cause my epic brother came back from Geelong for holiday and took us out to duh Vietnam restaurant at Ferryden park ;) NNQ baby! Yarr... and then yeh. Joined them at Belgium beer cafe, then moved onto some place called Tequilarea? I have no idea. Not important. Then the rest of the night/morning they party'ed it up at the City nightclub. Was fun :) Hope to see you guys more often.. since I feel like we're drifting ever so far apart :O

Got home looking to crash in my soft, comfy bed.. only to find my brothers friends playing monopoly in the lounge >:/ GRRR.. lol joke. Was good catching up, people. Made migoreng..so much migoreng.

Trying to think about what kind of exciting things I can get up to with these holidays.. must not waste! Haha.. I kid ofcourse. Should head to uni to study. Will do soon. But for tomorrow... JOHNNY ENGRISH, YO! :D Haven't been to a movie in ages, not that it's any better than watching at home, but you know the company is always good- agree?

I have at the moment the strongest urge to play badminton. :\ haven't played since.. last Thursday. D: Unspoken of. LOL.

Dude, too slow.

Waiting for 3am to roll around, so I can take my parents to the airport. Surprising how slow time goes when you have nothing to do. SO now I'm watching Home Shopping on tv. They're selling Genie Bras. The most epic bra in the world, that can hold your jugs in just the right way, for any size boob and every sized woman. No rolled back fat, no armpit fat hanging out. I'm getting me one of those. LOL JOKE. NO BOOBS TO HOLD.

Arr.. one more hour to go. So much time with nothing to do. Gets the ol' brain ticking, doesn't it? One thought leading onto another... and so on and so forth.

Break ups are difficult. And always will be, unless ofcourse you really couldn't care less about the other person anymore. If so, you're kind of abit maybe heaps heartless. Haha.. or you've fallen out of love. Actually, maybe even if that was the case, you'd probably still look back to the good times and miss it every now and again. Having past experience doesn't really help either in terms of managing breakup. Its not like aquired immunity, which gets stronger upon each subsequent contact with the antigen. I'm so smart. You see the smartness in that sentence? Chyeah. Haha.. Anyway. I guess yeh, its a subjective thing. Not that I would know a whole lot about it.

After meeting someone who at some point in time meant the world to you..someone who crossed your mind every single day, someone who used to hold onto you like they never wanted let go, breaking up is effing hard. At first it feels like its the end of the world -just exaggerating a tad-Something's missing from your life and getting up each morning is more of a drag than usual. Every post on tumblr seems to be about some corny relationship crap.

Then after a while, maybe a month or so you think to yourself -no. I'll get through this. Things will be just fine (ofcourse they will eventually). You find things to do to distract yourself and your mind is so busy that you don't dwell on your feelings so much. Now when people ask how you're holding up you tell them 'I'm awesome'. Then later what? Something happens/someone says something that triggers those feelings for that person yet again. Feelings that you thought you had control of... well fo' shizzle my nizzle, you don't.

Then you start to think back to the actual reason you broke up in the first place and whether you could have just sorted things out and pulled through.

Then those feelings about what could have been.

Gosh man, shoulda just pulled out the textbooks and studied instead of blogging. Those feelings suck D:

Lets do some smiling, people!

Cyanide and Happiness are the lols :D

Like my doodle?

I wonder if its still up on the whiteboard in that room. I swear the new Learning Hub is just a massive distraction. Learning!? More like.. not.. learning. haha.. so many places to chill, toasters to toast, computers to Facebook, and whiteboards to draw on. Not to mention beanbags to make out on! LOL cause yeh, thats what people are doing these days. Well, at least the last few times I passed by the bean bags.. Reow.

Semi-finals was on tonight for A-grade, and yee the AU Black Dragons are through to the Finals, bro! :) Con..gra..tu..laaations.. a celebraaation.. Although probably going to get an ass kicking next week. Zhe, Johnny and Simon playing I think? Oh hot dayum. Shall be a fun finals.

In other news.. Basement-to-pub-crawl on this Friday. What else is conveniently happening this Friday? PARENTS LEAVING TO NZ, chyeahhh boy! Partyin' partyin' YEH! Literally.

I know, i know.. should be studying.. Totally going to regret this and whine about it when exams come in 6weeks, but I shall worry about this at a later date! After parents come back :)

I was thinking that I shouldn't be taking advantage of their absence to have fun... But.. I'm young. PLENTY of time to mature up later.

To the people who think I've changed.. Ofcourse I have. That's what people do. That's what life is about! For now, I'll keep being myself. Albeit a little annoying, but still.. myself.

Again, this kind of crap I shall worry about.. at a later date!

Impossiberry

Get ready for yet another .. depressing post. Don't want to read it? Yeh I probably wouldn't want to either LOLOL. Sigh.. It has come another period in my life where shit just happens.

I don't mind if stuff happens to me that you know, consists of boy trouble, uni or friends. That I can deal with. However when shit happens with my FAMILY, thats when life starts to kick me in the damn uterus. ooo.. uterus. I actually don't know where that is.

So I just came home.. and yes I know. Tis quite late. But I was just at a friends house for a 21st, sitting around making conversation with people that I know my parents would trust. I know.. I shouldn't have come home so late, only after my dad rang twice to ask why we wern't home yet. I know. My bad i knowwww!

But really.. you know where I am, who I'm with, what I'm doing.. Why does it worry you so much that you need to stay awake until I get home? Even more, sit on the armchair waiting when I open the door with your hands and legs crossed.

SHIZ man.. the moment I walked into the house I could feel the tension.

My dad was like "both of you, sit down."

OH DAYUM, we're having the talk arn't we. LOL not about the birds and the bees obviously.

.. I just don't get how my dad thinks that the only way I'll understand why he's so angry is by yelling and screaming at me. Accusing me of being the shittest daughter anyone could ever have, and that I'm useless and good for nothing.

Telling me that I'm shit isn't going to motivate me to get better. All it's going to do is lower my self esteem. But I guess he hasn't caught on yet. Maybe I'll wait another 18 years.

You don't HAVE to yell and scream at your 18/19 year old children. If it's not working.. shouldn't you try another tactic? Sensible conversation would be nice once in a while..

I know it sounds so.. spoilt and selfish but.. they say that I should act like an adult, always telling me to be responsible and take everything I do seriously.. But they treat me so.. childish. Would you yell at an adult who made a mistake?

Tonight I just felt like I was that little 8 year old again, getting yelled at for kicking that one mean boy in my class in the shins.

AH, poop.

Well people, I'm sure you all know, wherever you are in the world that yesterday was indeed Septmeber 11. I don't really pay attention to these things, but while I was surfing the web yesterday, I saw somewhere that it's been 10 years since the 9/11 incident. Ten years. I thought it was just four or five years ago.. How time flies, ehy? But thats beside the point.

Then I started reading through random blogs, and one of my friends had written about the incident, watching youtube videos of what happened.. and interviews of people that had lost someone they loved. It was such a sad piece of writing.. coming from someone so young. Seriously thumbs up to her. She mentioned watching children as young as 10 years old, looking into the camera, telling us that the world is no longer safe. I'm just thinking..What was I doing when I was 10 years old? Happily playing with my grandma and brothers on the swings in our backyard.. waking up to my dad singing, piggy backing me to the kitchen to eat his pancakes.. thats what. These children.. having to face such a cruel reality so early in their lives.. what the eff.

Ten years later..somewhere, a girl my age would be laying on her bed crying.. mourning the death of her loved ones..longing for them to come back. For the people in her life who left without saying goodbye.

I'm sitting here.. just feeling so pathetic for feeling down about anything in my life at the moment.

You had a lot of crooks tryn' to steal your heart,

Never really had luck, couldn't never figure out

How to love.

Such a meaningful song even though its by lil wayne who I can't stand to listen to. HAHA. Don't hurt me.

Saturday afternoons are almost never very productive.

Needing to get a move on with my ILA assignment, since its due very soon and I've been spending the last few days chilling, badmintoning and what else- Oh yeah I ended up going to the show.

It was an impulse thing. Peeps just rang up late yesterday afternoon and told me that they have staff tickets to go to the show.. I got all excited but when I turned up- No staff tickets.

Sigh.. LOL oh well.. thankful that they managed to drag me to the show, I'd forgotten how fun the atmosphere was! :) Definitely smile-worthy.

But nope, not my fat elephant to keep.

Going to a joint 21st tonight, Gossip girl theme? Sigh. You know how much I ceebs for themes. :\ not that I'm a killjoy or anything- no matter how much I sound like one-, but sigh. Now I have to at least try to dress up. Gossip girl, chhh-_-peeps going to be rocking their sexy dresses off, i'll just be chillin' like a cucumber ;) Oh well. After party at Zhe's (Y) naice.

Whats the time? 5:45pm, people. Guess I should go sleep for a while then figure out what to wear. LOL lazy ass.

Heels... going to impair my feet tonight.

Getting replaced.

Thats right Pikachu. No longer will you be the one who gets my much-awesome hugs at night.

SHAAABAMMM!! Rilakkuma takes over.

LOLOLOL DID YOU LAUGH!? Cause I laughed so hard that I cried when I looked at this photo. LOL at my face! Hahaha.. made my day. Smile! :)

Sigh. My tiny single bed is being taken over by the growing collection of soft toys.-_- Got another box full sitting by my door. LOL I've literally lost half of my sleeping space D:

Haha, Thankyou to Yu-Li and Lidya for getting me such an awesomely cute present for my belated 18th! Tonight it shall be sleeping with me ;)

Also, to my happy chappy awesome sauce- coolest dad in my world.. Happy Father's day ♥. My dad and I, we be cool beans together. It's how we roll. LOL. Yes ofcourse, we have our fights and arguments. But at the end of the day, I know he does it because he wants me to be as awesome a person as possible :) THanks Babaaa :D You know you love me. Even though you'll never say it==. Cause you're not cheesy. Mabes thats why you also don't like to eat cheesy things. And TERRIBLE with emotions I must say. But I admit, I did enjoy that long talk about relationships-amongst other things- with the family today. HAHA.

Dad is strongly hinting that I should bring home a boy soon. Oh hot dayumm. Cause when I graduate and start working- All the good ones will be gone! And the ones that are available will be like last nights leftovers. Shitt. LOL JOKE. hahah.. but nah. No rush. I shall take it slow. Too bad too sad, dad!

"Telling your bf you're pregnant by posting Happy Father's day on his wall."

HAHA. When the time comes- Will do, facebook. Will do. (Y)

Sadness.

Was walking through the city at night-you know, doing a little late night shopping. Fail shopping by the way since I didn't even buy anything. Haha.. And yes. Next to Myer in Rundle mall theres like a massive crowd of people shouting and making noise. I think it was some sort of protest against that group of Christian preachers from The Adelaide street Church always in Rundle mall telling everyone that they're going to go to hell because they have sinned.

What the jizzle, seriously?

Sigh.. so much hate. They're always shouting about how homosexuals, black people, muslims, people who drink, gamble, cheat, lie or steal will end up in hell, and that everyone hates them. "Get the freaks off the street" I heard them chanting..

I mean, the drinking, gambling, cheating, lying, stealing part I get why some people would think that they deserve to be looked down upon. But most of the emphasis was on gays, transexuals, people with other religious views and black people :\ I just look at these stupid preachers and shake my head. It's just so sad.

How about you stop shoving religion down my throat and do something worthwhile in your life?

I'm glad that there were people tonight trying to stop this kind of extremist crap going on. Oh, no offence to any of you Christians out there who happen to read this blog. I'm pretty sure these hate preachers are a minority, and that you're probably just as pissed off at them as I am. I mean, they always preach about how everyone has sinned and will go to hell, but what about they themselves? It's not like they have been perfectly 'good' all their lives, that they've never lied about something, gone drinking or gambled. It's just stupid. That is all.

LOL just a random Akatsuki cosplay dude writing up his sign. I think it read "I'm a transgender full of love, just trying to live my life." ♥

Sigh.. in other news. My cousin recently bought me some make-up for my late birthday present. I spent tonight trying to look like a girl.. HAHA shiiieeeeet. I made myself look like a damn panda. Aiyer, why so hard to be a girl? Sometimes I wish I could be a dude. I'd be such a handsome one :D

It's going to take a while.

Oh Spring, you're finally here. No more gloomy depressing mornings, or walking home in the rain at night. No more need for an umbrella to take up space in my bag and make it smell from it's wetness. Wow, do I complain much or what!? Oh well, grateful that it's Spring. With all the

sunshine, its IMPOSSIBLE not to be happy :)

Yes. Smile indeed. I have this song stuck in my brains, I've been singing it in my head for the past 4 hours. You know that song from Stepbrothers that the family sings in the car? Hilarious movie btw.

Sweet Child O' Mine by Guns and Roses. GAHHH. Don't know why I thought of that song in the first place. Then at badminton I started doo dooo doo-ing the tune, and this indian guy that has frog-like proportions was looking at me like 'what the shiz.' I know, I'm cool.

Sigh.. just randomly..Ever get the feeling that you shouldn't be feeling what you're feeling? D:

Acting like nothings wrong..who am I trying to fool.