Tuesday, June 30, 2015


First and last exam in a few hours. I'm starting to get nervous but theres not much I can do now ahahha.. General knowledge be general. Not really sure what they might ask today. A 15 minute oral exam doesn't sound long but it'll feel like an age when I'm actually sitting infront of the panel lol. Sweaty palms bro.

Yesterday I was procrastinating so hard that I thought screw this, I'm getting that haircut that I've been wanting for weeks. I remember back in Whyalla wanting to get it cut but- for one, its Whyalla- who gets their hair cut there.. and two.. my tutor had just got her hair cut similar to how I wanted it and yea. That would have been awkward.. she probably would be like who is this fool, trying to kiss ass and copy me. Hahaha.. Heres a before and after. The before isn't so clear but my hair was getting too long for me to handle lol. Too many hairs on the ground, in the shower, in my bed.. plus there was no shape to it, it was just limp and boring. Well, to me anyways. I also didn't wear it down very often. So whats the point of having long hair if I'm going to tie it up anyways and not wash it for days cause I can't be bothered? Hahah.. I know. I'm lazy. I have been told.

At least with my short hair, the showers will be easy and I wont be traumatised by the amount of hair I shed after every wash. I can't wait!! :D hur hur.. the simple things in life.

Went to the hairdresser that Simon goes to- Lecido I think its called now. He goes every few months cause the hair starts to look like a birds nest HAHA soz babe. Not that its a bad look ;) I liked it there, aside from goddamnn $35! Never paid so much for a haircut... pretty much ever haha. I didn't even have my hair washed! Maybe it would have been $40 if I got a wash too +_+ But I guess what can you expect, ladies haircuts seem to be getting more expensive these days. Along with everything else in the world. Besides K-mart. K-mart is always cheap :D My absolute favourite store at the moment.

Fark, need to get off the social networking and revise. 2 more hours. Wish me luck people!

Tuesday, June 23, 2015


So our RFDS trip which was only supposed to be a weekend, got stretched out for days due to bad weather. Who would have thought.. heavy rain in the desert. Hahah.
We were flown out to Mungaranie, about an hour and a half long plane ride away from Port Augusta. OMG saw an emu on the side of the road heading to the airport by the way. Holy crap, that was definitely the highlight of my day... Got so excited at the time, and excited now just thinking about it HAhahaha.. a real emu! Only in Australia hey?
Anywho, what I thought was supposed to be a town, turned out to be a 'town' comprising of one pub and a hotel... And nothing else. Haha, not even kidding! Population of ten people. I didn't even know such a thing was possible.

The pub was super quirky, heaps of collections of stuff everywhere, even people's hair. Apparently people cut off a ponytail and stick it up on the ceiling. Legit pony-tails. Hats, shirts, underwear.. pretty much anything that people can to staple to the ceiling.. Even pubic hair. LOL. ew.
We opened up our 'clinic' in the dining room of the pub, set up a few chairs for people to sit on while we look into their mouths. Ofcourse, due to limited resources and lack of equipment we could only do a screening exam, a gross clean if necessary and simple fillings (chemical curing material instead of the light curing or metal filling materials).

The experience was so good. I would recommend it for any student within the health profession really. Its good to get out there and realise how much help these people actually need. The people we saw were so appreciative of the services we provided. With such limited access to health care and with the distance between them and any sort of major town, they are really thankful for any kind of help they can get.

My favourite bit of the trip.. The STARS, people. The STARS. It is like nothing I had ever seen before... So beautiful. I remember looking up at the stars in Ballarat once when I was younger, maybe 15 or 16, and thinking that it was so beautiful. But it was nothing compared to seeing the stars at night from the desert. Crazy beautiful. Millions upon millions of stars... The perfect place to be with your loved ones. And that was exactly what I felt. Felt like bringing Simon so we could lie on the ground, look up at the stars and just talk about ridiculousness. Felt like bringing my mum and dad so they could see it with their own eyes ;) I got so excited when I saw that I jumped up and down and ran around going 'OH MY GOODNESS HOLY MOLY WHAT THE HECKKKK I CAN'T BELIEVE MY EYES, SO BEAUTIFUL'.. and everyone else was like 'what.. they're just stars'. They said they had all seen this view many times before. Looks like I've missed out on alot of the world. haha All the more reason to get travelling once I graduate! :) One lady that saw me running around told my tutor that watching me get so excited was a priceless moment for her and she would never forget it. ahhaha I make such imprints on people ;)

The road home was crazy though. The Mungeranie station air strip was a dirt track, so the plane was unable to fly until it had been tested and cleared by the owners of the strip. We waited for days, waiting for the rain to clear and to give the airstrip time to dry out. All the roads were closed too so we couldn't drive out. Literally stranded. Had to call up the ADH to cancel my patients for that week.. Don't think they would have been to happy lol. On the day we were told we could fly back, they said it still had not dried up enough as it had rained over night. So we ended up asking a few people we had met at the pub if we could hitch a ride with them to the next concrete airstrip in Maree. They were kind enough to agree and so we sat in the back of their van... So legal. So safe. A road trip that would usually only have been a couple hours, turned into six and a half. The roads had only been opened that morning and it too was still wet. The 4WDs had to go pretty much 20km/hr for most of the way because it kept getting bogged in the mud. Crazy ride back.. Still can't believe we made it back lol. I was thinking of Wolf Creek the whole time. LOL. sigh. scary times. Why did I watch it while I was there...

Anywho, got back safe and enjoyed my trip so all is good :D
Swotvac week this week, and just one Viva examination and I'll be done.
Vivas are not so bad, I think I've gotten much better at them lol. Just smile and wave boys... Just smile and wave. Goodluck everyone with your exams. Holidays arn't too far away! Picture time.


 Look at all that hair..

Our make shift dental chair LOL. 
The rain that stranded us.

Went for a walk to see how bad the airstrip was.... Yea.. wasn't great lol. Like walking in quicksand.

                               Thought it would be cool to sit in there at first.. 6.5hours later..
The kind gentleman who drove us to Maree :)

Tuesday, June 9, 2015


Last day of clinic at the Whyalla Oral Health Centre tomorrow. Super pleased haha..
Even though I'll have to do my self-assessment and see what grade she has decided for me .. plus give my case presentation.. its the LAST DAY. Hahahah.
One more day of clinic and then we will be off to the Royal Flying Doctor Service. Plane rides for the win!
However, I did have a dream that the aircraft crashed. ..bad sign? Hmm..
Should be a great experience, hopefully I'll still have net when I get there so I can blog about it. Otherwise I'll just wait until I touch down in Port Augusta. Intrigued to see how it goes, and what kind of demographic we get to treat. Hoping there will be a few young ones to see! Mungerannie, I think the place is called. About an hour and a half plane ride from Port Augusta. Apparently a very remote area surrounded by desert.. Legit rural I guess! Pretty excited :)

5 weeks went by quickly, but I won't forget how much stress I felt throughout, and there were times where I had truly given up on myself. Picked my game back up by the end of it, hopefully its enough to get me through. And if not.. well, my tutors back in Adelaide love me so I'm sure I'll be fine. HAHA. Maybe. Fingers crossed :)

Monday, June 1, 2015

Week 4

I've never been more thankful for the last weeks to come rolling around. Don't think I've ever wished for something to be over so much! Haha.. Not even exams.

Still feeling the inadequacy, and still feeling like I might actually fudge it all up on my last year and that there's a long road ahead to prove myself. But hey, it's almost over.
I've been talking to many people about my situation and little by little I'm feeling more positive.
She still has a thing against me, I'm sure of it. But I can't walk into clinic with that approach every day, it doesn't achieve much and there is just a massive mental block that exists when I have that mindset. I do try to stay as positive as I can, but her truck of negativity does get me down still.
I'm just gonna have to work at it as best I can for the next 2 weeks.
Talked to my family but although they're a shoulder to lean on, they don't truly GET it. Sure they can provide me with reassurance and support but my dad will still think its an issue with my attitude towards the tutor. Which it really is not. I am nothing but respectful towards her in the clinic and I don't ever question her. And when my dad says things like that it just upsets me, because it goes to show that he really doesn't get it. However he does speak the blunt truth, and truth is that you're going to get shit bosses some time in your life, and unless you just learn to deal with it, you'll have a very difficult career ahead of you.

Talking to past students helped me alot, they know what its like, they've been through it before. And although they may not have been in as bad a situation as I, they understand how this tutor functions and how she makes people feel down on themselves. I got excellent words of advice from them. To not let her opinions dictate me and my concepts, and that I'm not as shit as I feel. I really shouldn't sell myself short. I'm good at what I do.

My older brother gets it. A few texts back to him and I feel better already. He's experienced the same thing many times, I can imagine being in a hospital intern setting would do terrible things to your self-esteem, constantly being looked down on and questioned by your superiors.. But he's learnt to put it aside and not let it get to him.
It's something I need to learn.

I've never had many issues in clinic, and I guess this has really taken me by surprise..
I'll just have to roll with it and prove to my other tutors back in Adelaide that her grade is not consistent with theirs.

Emotions fairly up and down lately. Hard time trying to control them.. The feeling of fragility is horrible.. But theres always an upside. The end is not far :) And who am I to complain. My problems are miniscule in comparison to other people. At least I'm alive, healthy and loved. Much to be thankful for.

Hope you guys are having a better 5 weeks than I am!