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Today's patient cancelled on me. And after flipping the table cause of having 4wednesday session cancellations in a row, found out that the reason he didnt come was because he couldn't afford treatment today. Before you say anything, I'd like to let you know that the filling I was going to do was only $25. Yea, the public service is indeed very cheap. Compared to private anyways. And so I felt horrible for getting pissed off. just thinking how bad of a situation he might be in financially, not being able to scrap together 25$. Sad. He's only 22 as well. To add to that he's epileptic. This patient isnt even considered unlucky when you look at some of the other people that walk into the dental hospital. Some people really grabbed the short end of the stick in life. Which like many things every so often just reminds me how lucky I am. How lucky we aaaall are. I don't think I have gone through any true hardships in life yet. And when I do, I wonder how I might deal with it and if I will be the type to stay strong.

On a more typical-diary-note, went for brunch at Argo's today to catch up with a friend before uni. Damn I love brunch. it really is my favourite meal of the day. I could eat brunch for every meal if I could. so many choices, so delicious, so very goot!

I can't wait to earn more money and try every single brunch place in Adelaide. Or better still, learn how to make nice brunches myself. lol. but as you know, cooking is really not my forte.. and yea. I don't really care for it. LOL. 

Have a good day homie gees. 

The chance was there.

This weekend's tournament has been.. draining- to say the least. I'm emotionally drained, and physically exhausted. Sad face. Whinge whinge.

Double runner up- singles and mixed doubles. Mixed doubles was very unlucky. We should have won that third set. And by the time I came to play my singles I had already played 5 games in a row with no breaks- 3setters. I was so disappointed in myself and embarrassed. For being so weak, tired and out-of-breath. And so stupid with game play. Why so noob? Even with people supporting me.

But what else to do but smile and move on? Not like I would cry infront of everyone. Although. So close to. lol. just saying.

It was third set and we were 17-12 down, it wasn't until I made michelle dive for a shuttle, fallover and hit the ground hard when I realised how much of a sore loser I have turned into. I just left her there, didn't say sorry, didn't even look at her. Just went to pick up my shuttle and get ready to serve again. Wow. What have I become?

Quite surprised by how I acted.

I think for a moment.. I had forgotten that there are more important things to life than winning.

And maybe my mind was somewhere else.