Monday, April 29, 2013

City of Dreams

Sometimes I find myself caring too much. I would like to think that I'm a somewhat kind and caring person, but then there are times when I stop to think- why do I care so much about this/that/him/her?

There are times where it is mentally draining, and physically exhausting to put in such energy to care.
And at the end of the day, you wonder- was it worth it?

For most things, i think yes, it was worth it. Even if the outcome is bad, wasn't this a good life experience? Didn't I learn something from it?
Other times not so much.
Question is- is this one of those other times?
And thats the other problem. I ask myself this question far too many times. Its become almost a habit. And I still, do not know the answer.

#pointlessblog #wastedtime #misleadingblogposttitle
Just kidding. this isn't Twitter. I've become one of those people who inappropriately just hashtag their life. Ohhh, the horrors.

Uni starts again tomorrow. The last mid-term has passed by in a blur, and I'm almost certain that I haven't learnt anything. Must get to all those lectures soon. Fingers crossed.

Thursday, April 25, 2013

Get on it.

Time has been flying by oh so quickly these past few weeks. I almost don't remember how I've spent my holidays. Then I remember- Been busting my ass working. Hahah 
Yes, I got a job. Who would have thought?
I was always hesitant about getting a job. Didn't know if I could manage to juggle everything in my life PLUS extra work. I'm guessing my studies are going to suffer. But anywho. it got to the point where I was just so bored with what I was doing everyday- Uni, badminton, uni, badminton, uni, home, sleep, sleep, sleep, make no money, sleep, spend money, eat, eat, eat ,eat- Oh man. I felt like such a waste of space. Felt like I needed to make the most of my free time. I guess life isn't always supposed to be exciting or fun. You just need to find time for the things worth doing.
And if uni gets too hardcore- guess I could always quit my job.
So I work at a sushi place now. Come visit me if you want sushi. Just a heads up though, I can't give you a discount. Haha.. i'll slip you some extra wasabi/pink ginger or maybe a couple more soy sauce packets. 
I have to say, I'm quite enjoying work. I like having random conversations with the odd person while they're deciding what to get. Although you get reaally 'sigh' customers that take an age and a half to decide what they want to eat for lunch. You'd think they were making real life changing decisions.
My boss is pretty cool. He's strict but can joke around at the same time.
Lots of fobs working. Man. Fobs. One of my pet peeves. But hey, I can learn to deal with it. Atleast they're nice.

Because I've been so busy, it feels like I haven't had time to enjoy myself very much. Haven't set foot in the gym for over 3 weeks.. Kind of disappointed in myself.
I keep telling myself that I need to blog about these kinds of things, whats been happening in my life etc- not for the reason of informing the world of my doings and whereabouts, but to remind MYSELF of what I've achieved, what has happened, where all my time has gone, and to not lose sight of the things i need to focus on.
Study for example. Don't remember the last time I printed out lecture notes. Disappointing indeed. How can I expect to do well seeing patients if my knowledge is not up to scratch?
Exercise. Thats definitely a downward spiral. A fatty waiting to explode. 3kilos. Thats how much I've gained over the past.. 2 months or so. Disappointing as well.
Family and friends. Haven't spent much time with my family these days. Nor my friends. Or Rosemay. Rosemay. if you're reading this I'm really sorry I haven't kept you updated, or been over to see you in a while.. Really sorry :'/ 
It takes effort to stay connected with the ones you really care for. Lately I haven't been making much of an effort.
I'm always so tired nowadays. Again.
Hopefully I'll get my shit together soon, get back on track and start being awesome again. 

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Open fire; Sydney 2013

FARK. I want you to understand so badly how I'm feeling right now. But I can't possibly put this feeling into words. Is it love? Is it obsession? Its definitely not normal. HAHA. Maybe abit of every emotion in the book.
You know why?
Cause I saw him. 
I saw Lee hom.
This is serious, I need help cause my heart can't take it no more.
Sigh. Kind of wishing I didn't see him in concert. Cause now I love him even more.
Before I was slowly getting over him and listening to his music was "yeh, very good, alright". Now when I think back to how GOOD he was Live.. DAMN. No one can compare. I'm being absolutely serious.

He is perfect on stage. Hits every note perfectly. If you close your eyes, you'd probably think you're in heaven just listening to angels. THATS how good it was. No lip syncing, no fakeness.. Just a genuinely awesome music artist on stage.
I can't even describe the amount of talent. Jeebus.
every second of that concert was just awesome. Even his new songs which I can admit are really not very great at all, sounded so good coming from his mouth.
Couldn't believe he was actually there, in the same room as me. not even 50 metres away.
I wanted to run from my seat and hug him so badly.
All the time I was screaming from my seat, I wanted and hoped that he could hear me. I screamed out I LOVE YOU LEE HOM when it had gone all silent as the song was just about to start. I really wanted him to notice me..How sad.
I understand how gay this is sounding and how weird it might be for you peeps. But DAYUM. My idol since I was 7, I'M EXCITED just THINKING back to it.
I never thought I'd be able to see him. Ever.
Its the kind of thing you only dream about but never expect to happen. Like winning the lottery. Or finding the perfect man. Or for fairies to come flying out my ass. HAHA Things like that just don't happen.
In the middle of the concert, some guy proposed to his girlfriend. That lucky girl.God damn it. THAT SHOULD BE ME, having Forever Love sung to me. Having him walk down from the stage to hug me. SIGH. all the jelly.

Anywho I think i should stop now. I'm going to explode. Going to roll to badminton so I can snap back to reality. lol. If he comes to Australia again.. I'm definitely going to try and make it.
Aside from thaat craziness... I had a pretty nice time in Sydney. Went down with my cousin Emily- Happy 18th by the way baby! Got her to try Rekorderlig cause tis the bomb.
ok ready? BOOM. Picture spam. *cue elevator music*

Did alot of walking, shopping and eating. So much eating.. 10pm .. "you hungry..?" "yea..." LOL then come back with hot chips. Fatties.
But as much as Sydney was fun, I was happy to come home to Adelaide. I think the people are generally just nicer, the streets are friendlier, less bustling and busy. I love Adelaide to be honest. :')