Yolo

HOLYJIGGLYPUFF why is my room always messy?! Literally can't keep it clean for more than a week. Messy room makes me sad. Cleaning up is on the to-do-list for after exams finish.

Last exam in a couple days. The 8 day break between my exams have been killer for me. Just sitting here chilling, thinking I know everything- 2 days before exam OH CRAP, everything forgotten. I'll cram tomorrow, I promise. Tonight I relax. Whats the point of stressing?

Ordered my guitar online just yesterday, hoping it comes in soon. I'm so excited I could exploooode! :'D hehehe. he.

Past two-ish weeks have been pretty up and down, studying so much but still going to badminton, still attending events. Deep down I know that I think I'm some kind of superwoman. One day I'll get a fail for one of my exams then shit will go down. But I'll think about that when the time comes.

More updates to come, just wait til after Tuesday. I'll be a freeee bird! Fly all over the place. Like a gangster. #yolo.
LOL YOLO. A new girl came in for a trial run and she told me her name was Yolo. I was like um what? What was that? Your name is Yolo? Are you serious? LOLOL.
And yea, she was serious. That was pretty funny. I could hear my boss in the back just laughing his head off at me. But really, how could you NOT laugh at a name like that!? Shall not be seeing Yolo any time soon though. Cause Yolo did not have much common sense.
She actually used the tongs and handed a takoyaki by the stick to give to a customer without putting it in a paper bag first. Who does that? Noobsauce will be noob.
I'm now the 'Trainer' at work. Means I get the job of teaching new salesgirls how to use the damn cash register, explaining what is in each dish, explaining how to memorize all the prices.. Also the job of telling the boss whether I think they'd be any good at sales. Also means I decide who they hire or not. Ghey. But hey, responsibility? That doesn't come by very much. Hahah. Good job Jun.

^Typical study boredom gummy bear sex.
HELLO extra homolicious noobs.
You can tell exams are coming when Jun starts to blog more often. I dunno. Its a way for me to wind down a night of study. Now I just wish that my keyboard weren't so effed up, and this experience would actually be a stress-relieving, relaxing one. But no. I had to drop breadcrumbs and all kinds of junk inbetween the keys. Annoying, having to type extra hard and extra slow, actually having to proof-read every word. Gheeeyyy.
Living on my own for the past few days has been pretty fun actually. Being able to come home when I want to, eat what I want and when I want to, sing as loud and as late as I want to, stay up and study as much as I need to, and most importantly run around half naked. Just kidding.
But it is kind of lonely.
Aaaaanyways. Also having to find food for myself- dayum, this is the part where I wish my parents were back again. All I can say is- I'm really REALLY good at making instant noodles. And toast. And eggs.

Tonight has been the only meal that I've tried extra hard for. And even then its something a child could make. Ohhh wells. Pasta on the house. #slapondatfilter

If you've never tried avocado and soy sauce, I strongly recommend that you do so! pssht, i heard you ew. Don't EW me, its delicious. DELICIOUS I TELL YOU!
Or maybe I've just become a crazy avocado freak. an avocraydo. LOL ;D heh heh.

Another thing I'm now grateful for my parents is how they wake me up everyday. LOL. jeebus, I can't even begin to describe the hardship involved in waking me up. I don't even hear my alarm. I just literally CAN'T hear it. If I did, atleast I'd TRY to wake up. I asked my friend to give me a wake up call, he had to give me 21 missed calls before I heard my phone ring on the 22nd time. ...22nd time lucky..?
God damn, i don't remember when I started to sleep like such a pig. But it's happened. It can't be reversed. LOL. my future husband better be damn patient!
Study hard everyone, the worst will soon be over.

F310

Finally buying my first guitar. It will be pretty legendary.

Was originally looking at a different one also Yamaha but then.. gg, finally make time to get to the store and BAM all sold out. Really sad-faced it all the way back home. Oh the memories we could have made together. Anywhoop, have my eyes set on the F310 now, so allll is well.

Wanted something not too expensive but also good quality, and according to the maaaany reviews I read up on during the time I was meant to study this lovely Friday evening, this one is not too shabby! Awesome sauce for me. 4.5-5stars? Stars don't lie! HAHA. Not like I know much about guitars.. But nevertheless, I have decided. eehehe. exciting. First big buy with my own hard-earned cash. Time to reap the rewards of a severely underpaid job. 

How am I, you ask?

NOT SO GOOD.

Wish it weren't so.

Feeling really pushed for time, yet it is getting hard to say no to friends, work and badminton. Juggling is really hard. Both a metaphoric and literal expression. Cause I tried to juggle two days ago. Couldn't do it. Balls too big for my hands.

But I'll get there. The studying thing, that is. Not the balls in hand thing. Haha..

Exams in 16days. gee gee.

I've actually got so much to talk about.. But it is now the morning after I started writing this post cause I forgot about it and fell asleep. Haha and now I must get cracking with the humungo-mountain of lectures that they didn't bother recording to catch up on. How to even?

People need to start recording lectures for BDS3. Stupid lecturers. Stupid dentists. Or maybe I should have gone to the lectures instead of blowing it off for work. Stupid girl.

I am also home alone. #alone #studytime

Maybe I'll have instant noodles for lunch.

15

Today's patient cancelled on me. And after flipping the table cause of having 4wednesday session cancellations in a row, found out that the reason he didnt come was because he couldn't afford treatment today. Before you say anything, I'd like to let you know that the filling I was going to do was only $25. Yea, the public service is indeed very cheap. Compared to private anyways. And so I felt horrible for getting pissed off. just thinking how bad of a situation he might be in financially, not being able to scrap together 25$. Sad. He's only 22 as well. To add to that he's epileptic. This patient isnt even considered unlucky when you look at some of the other people that walk into the dental hospital. Some people really grabbed the short end of the stick in life. Which like many things every so often just reminds me how lucky I am. How lucky we aaaall are. I don't think I have gone through any true hardships in life yet. And when I do, I wonder how I might deal with it and if I will be the type to stay strong.

On a more typical-diary-note, went for brunch at Argo's today to catch up with a friend before uni. Damn I love brunch. it really is my favourite meal of the day. I could eat brunch for every meal if I could. so many choices, so delicious, so very goot!

I can't wait to earn more money and try every single brunch place in Adelaide. Or better still, learn how to make nice brunches myself. lol. but as you know, cooking is really not my forte.. and yea. I don't really care for it. LOL. 

Have a good day homie gees. 

The chance was there.

This weekend's tournament has been.. draining- to say the least. I'm emotionally drained, and physically exhausted. Sad face. Whinge whinge.

Double runner up- singles and mixed doubles. Mixed doubles was very unlucky. We should have won that third set. And by the time I came to play my singles I had already played 5 games in a row with no breaks- 3setters. I was so disappointed in myself and embarrassed. For being so weak, tired and out-of-breath. And so stupid with game play. Why so noob? Even with people supporting me.

But what else to do but smile and move on? Not like I would cry infront of everyone. Although. So close to. lol. just saying.

It was third set and we were 17-12 down, it wasn't until I made michelle dive for a shuttle, fallover and hit the ground hard when I realised how much of a sore loser I have turned into. I just left her there, didn't say sorry, didn't even look at her. Just went to pick up my shuttle and get ready to serve again. Wow. What have I become?

Quite surprised by how I acted.

I think for a moment.. I had forgotten that there are more important things to life than winning.

And maybe my mind was somewhere else.

City of Dreams

Sometimes I find myself caring too much. I would like to think that I'm a somewhat kind and caring person, but then there are times when I stop to think- why do I care so much about this/that/him/her?

There are times where it is mentally draining, and physically exhausting to put in such energy to care.
And at the end of the day, you wonder- was it worth it?

For most things, i think yes, it was worth it. Even if the outcome is bad, wasn't this a good life experience? Didn't I learn something from it?
Other times not so much.
Question is- is this one of those other times?
And thats the other problem. I ask myself this question far too many times. Its become almost a habit. And I still, do not know the answer.

#pointlessblog #wastedtime #misleadingblogposttitle
Just kidding. this isn't Twitter. I've become one of those people who inappropriately just hashtag their life. Ohhh, the horrors.

Uni starts again tomorrow. The last mid-term has passed by in a blur, and I'm almost certain that I haven't learnt anything. Must get to all those lectures soon. Fingers crossed.

Get on it.

Time has been flying by oh so quickly these past few weeks. I almost don't remember how I've spent my holidays. Then I remember- Been busting my ass working. Hahah 

Yes, I got a job. Who would have thought?

I was always hesitant about getting a job. Didn't know if I could manage to juggle everything in my life PLUS extra work. I'm guessing my studies are going to suffer. But anywho. it got to the point where I was just so bored with what I was doing everyday- Uni, badminton, uni, badminton, uni, home, sleep, sleep, sleep, make no money, sleep, spend money, eat, eat, eat ,eat- Oh man. I felt like such a waste of space. Felt like I needed to make the most of my free time. I guess life isn't always supposed to be exciting or fun. You just need to find time for the things worth doing.

And if uni gets too hardcore- guess I could always quit my job.

So I work at a sushi place now. Come visit me if you want sushi. Just a heads up though, I can't give you a discount. Haha.. i'll slip you some extra wasabi/pink ginger or maybe a couple more soy sauce packets. 

I have to say, I'm quite enjoying work. I like having random conversations with the odd person while they're deciding what to get. Although you get reaally 'sigh' customers that take an age and a half to decide what they want to eat for lunch. You'd think they were making real life changing decisions.

My boss is pretty cool. He's strict but can joke around at the same time.

Lots of fobs working. Man. Fobs. One of my pet peeves. But hey, I can learn to deal with it. Atleast they're nice.

Because I've been so busy, it feels like I haven't had time to enjoy myself very much. Haven't set foot in the gym for over 3 weeks.. Kind of disappointed in myself.

I keep telling myself that I need to blog about these kinds of things, whats been happening in my life etc- not for the reason of informing the world of my doings and whereabouts, but to remind MYSELF of what I've achieved, what has happened, where all my time has gone, and to not lose sight of the things i need to focus on.

Study for example. Don't remember the last time I printed out lecture notes. Disappointing indeed. How can I expect to do well seeing patients if my knowledge is not up to scratch?

Exercise. Thats definitely a downward spiral. A fatty waiting to explode. 3kilos. Thats how much I've gained over the past.. 2 months or so. Disappointing as well.

Family and friends. Haven't spent much time with my family these days. Nor my friends. Or Rosemay. Rosemay. if you're reading this I'm really sorry I haven't kept you updated, or been over to see you in a while.. Really sorry :'/ 

It takes effort to stay connected with the ones you really care for. Lately I haven't been making much of an effort.

I'm always so tired nowadays. Again.

Hopefully I'll get my shit together soon, get back on track and start being awesome again.