Are you cereal?

Not really. At the point in time although I have so much, and yes, I mean SO much material to cover for the coming exams, I don't feel that sense of urgency. But I know I SHOULD be feeling it. Tonight/this morning, I be doing what I do best, pulling all-nighters!
Although, don't think it has been the most productive night/early morning. 5am and all I've covered so far are two lectures on genetics.
Either I'm really slow or really stupid. HAHA. Procrastinating ofcourse. You know what the problem is? I keep picking up the damn guitar. I think to myself 'I'll just practice that part again..' and by the time I put it down again it's been an hour. Rinse and repeat. Sigh. lolol.
Oh well. Twas enjoyable. Not going to pretend that I'm real awesome at it, but I'm improving! Atleast.. I think I am. Hahaha. And its what I THINK THAT MATTERS, SO WHAT!?
One day I shall serenade a guy and he'll be like whoa, this is.. THE girl. LOL. Yeh. totes. hahah Like thats going to happen. But if it does, fairy god-mother, it would definitely be worth the ugly callouses on my fingers! :D

Its so peaceful right now.. so quiet. I guess thats why I dont mind pulling all-nighters, I don't get interrupted, no ones online to post on facebook/twitter/tumblr/blogspot to distract me, phone is not vibrating with notifications every 10 minutes.. I can just do whatever I want at my own pace. LOL sounding so much like an introvert right now. *emotime*
Haha.

Aanywho, sun is coming up, birds are going to start chirping any moment. Until the next all-nighter blog post, have a nice day!

Fine morning it is turning out to be. CHEERIO!

It's almost PBJ TIME.

Ello, Guv'na! Bread and butter, did you say?
NO. NO YOU CAN'T HAVE ANY BREAD AND BUTTER.

Twas a cold day today. Couldn't feel my nose. Or my toes. HAHA gotta remember that its WINTER now, and no matter how sunny it is in the afternoon, nights will ALWAYS be freezing minus ten hundred degrees. Lol. Just kidding. But it was pretty cold. Rug up, ladies and gentlemen! Don't catch the fluuuuuuuuu.

Been going to ze GYM alot the past couple weeks. What, Jun goes to a gym? What is this buuuuulshiittuuuu? yeh, yeh I did it. Joined a gym *round of applause*
Never thought I'd be one of THOSE, gymming almost everyday, buying nice workout clothes and such. Always thought it was a waste of money. Why run on a treadmill when the WORLD IS YOUR OYSTER. Run on your oyster. Outside. With the environment. HAHA. But see, June has come, and my oyster is too cold to run on.
So from now on, if I'm not studying for exams or at badminton, I'm probably at the gym. Fernwood fitness. Top of ye' old Toys R Us building. Come find me. Actually you probably can't if you're a dude. Women-only health club for the WIN.
No longer shall there be old men perving on bouncy boobs and ass while young women run on those treadmills. No more shall there be tanked up guys checking out their own reflection in the mirror on the walls of the weights room. And gone were the days where men gave those 'you don't belong here' looks to women who walk in to lift weights. I just couldn't say no!
Plus I got a half off discount. WHAT UP, CHINA!?
Love it, love it. Feel so happy at the gym. Classes are pretty fun. Exhausting.. but fun. And OH EM GEE, the trainers there... soooo tank. I mean, I always say that I'm a tank, but thats obviously BS. When I say tank, I mean 'can-bench-100kg' kind of tank. And they're not the yucky steroid body-builder type, they're actually totes pretty. Sigh.. one day Jun. one day.
Always spend too much time there and then forget about the tremendulous amount of crap I must get through for exam prep. YES it is EXAM TIME AGAIN. If you haven't started studying, GET CRACKALACKIN', noob! Hard work will aaalways be rewarded :)

Finally got to spend time with my girlies from highschool last week! Had a brownie baking, red velvet cupcake making night. ♥ excuse the heart, but I rearry do love and miss them. So girly, I know. Absence makes the heart grow fonder? One of my dent friends told me that when I was telling him how much I missed my besties. I guess yar, it does it does. I'm sure if everyone makes the effort, we'll stay awesome friends until we're old. When we're old and all our bones are all weak and brittle, we'll help each other up everytime we slip over and break our hips. When your wheelchair breaks down, I'll be there for you. ♥

 Mmm, brownies... Seriously the best brownies I evaaar tasted. Not even exaggerating D: The red velvet cupcakes, I thought were heaps good too. Although the person I gave my last cupcake to said they were kinda plain :( All my sweat and tears... LOL I kid, I didn't really do much. The kitchen is really not a very safe place for me.

Have a great month of June, people.

Reasons to smile

I can never think about anything significant enough to blog about anymore. This is turning into a poo-blog. BAAACK in the day, even the most simple event like going to buy my dental tools had me thinking about how I'd write a blog about it later in the day. Aahh, such young love. haha.
Young love, did you say?
man, I really try not to think about it, but when I think about certain relationships, I worry. How can two people be so attached that the moment they're apart, they begin to miss each other so badly that they start having withdrawal symptoms, break down with depression, gobble down twenty chocolate donuts.. Don't get me wrong, I'm not hating or anything, I literally just can't understand the feeling. I wish I did. Because isn't that love? I don't know. Really don't think I know much about the L word. Isn't it just a stronger word for like. Just like slap is a stronger word for pat. Oh no she didn't. ehehe.

My reasons to smile? TODAY. So today was a good day. Why, you ask? I passed clinic. Oh congrats jun, well done, clap clap. NO. No. I didn't JUST pass. I'm on a whole other LEVEL of passing. I passed with a GOOD. Not JUST a Satisfactory, a Good :D LOL Sounds stupid, I know. But thats how they grade us. Sure, its no Excellent, but hey, I've got to start SOMEWHERE. A 'Good' is as good as I've ever achieved so far in terms of clinic. So much improvement from the last Borderline. Sigh. Borderline. Oh, the shame. Forever on my record. But yay. Celebrations are in order.

All this good stuff happening in my life. Study, exercise, friends, family.. everything's going so well at the moment. I like it juuust the way it is. Who knew life could run so smooth? Right about now. Stop, time. STOP! I'm just going to sit back in my electricblanket-heated bed and savor the moment. Before something noob happens and then I come back here and blog-cry about it. haha NO. I did not just jinx myself.

:)

Willpower.

I really have to work on the whole Willpower thing people talk about. Setting a goal, heading out to complete it, and just when I'm about to reach the end, something triggers me and I just stop trying. I was almost there.. I was.
I know, I know. Its useless just whining about it, just go and do it blah blah blah. I know. It just frustrates me so much when I don't get the results I set out for, even though inside I know it was up to me to make those things happen. And I couldn't do it :'/
Then later you ask yourself, why COULDN'T you do it? Sad.
Gotta work on it.

Past week has been hectic, evvvverything going on. New hobbies, new activities, new friends, old friends, get-togethers, family committments, long hours, finishing assignments. No wonder why I had no spare time this week. But its ok. I quite liked it. Being busy although exhausting and sometimes stressful gives me time away from my thoughts. Those deep, dark, sometimes irrational and illogical thoughts. Those ones that just keep you awake at night.
The moment I turn off my light and get into bed, my eyes close and I just switch off. It's quite a change from the norm. And I like it. :)
The cold weather must have something to do with it too. Electric blanket IS love. haha.

Just terrible

Terri-bad? Thats a word I haven't heard being used in a while..
So what's just terrible, you ask?
Me. I'm terrible. Terrible at comforting people when they're down. Terrible at stopping the tears from falling out. JUST TERRIBLE! Even the people who say nothing but 'there there' and leave after a pat on the shoulder.. actually no that's pretty bad too. LOL. Sure I might talk alot about ridiculous stuff, have noob opinions and laugh about stupid things almost 24/7, but when it comes down to these 'there there' situations I have aaaabsolutely nothing to say :\
One such occasion happened today where my friend had eyes swollen to the size of tennis balls and was sobbing her heart out. Ofcourse it was about a guy, what else? Girls these days. pfft. HAHA I kid.
Sure, I didn't know much of the story and only had a general idea of what was happening, but why didn't I say something atleast a little empathetic? Cause totally, when you're crying you want to hear 'don't worry about it, time for clinic, lets go in and own it!'
.... this girl is pouring out heartbroken tears of SADNESS and you're just talking about going to clinic? ERR. Then came the "I'm going to hug you now, and its going to be awkward.. *hug* don't cry.." I literally said that. Shoot me now. Why, oh why, was I the only one in the bathroom..

More crap to say, clinic was a bummer. I guess its the first clinic in a while thats been shitty.. but I don't know, put me in a gay mood. I felt.. unsatisfactory. I felt incompetent. Who breaches infection control policies at this level!? Sigh. Another slip up could cost me that pass I so desperately want. Not being dramatic, no kidding. That's what my tutor said. I need to focus more when I'm in there. Fo' reals. It's not like I've exactly put in 110%. Which is noooo good. no good at all!

I guess from today's events I've learnt that I have a few aspects of myself that I really need to work on. Wait, doesn't that mean I have to change? Ofcourse it does. Change is for the better, if you're changing for yourself. The right reasons. Whatever makes you happy :) You know what makes me happy? You. Wow, this is off topic.

Wink-a-doodle!

Dentmau5

Ofcourse I'd blog after a pubcrawl! Cause who wouldn't!
A night of epic proportions, fun times and slightly vague memories of what I did or did not do/say.
I've gotta admit, I have to be careful about what I do at these events.. There is only so much boob poking I should do to avoid looking slightly lesbian. Ohhh my gosh. Apparently I did much funnier things, which I will definitely find out about on Monday at uni. :/

Caught up with all my dent friends, met some new people and had conversations with people that I never thought I'd talk to. Started the night wearing ridonkulous high heels *so smart* and ended up buying new boots to ease the pain. Thank gosh for late-night shopping on Friday nights. Wow, those boots are comfortable. It's like walking on a cloud, after those killer heels. I still remember the over-ecstatic feeling.
Stupid idea really, wearing heels last night. Now my ankles are way worse off than they were after the baddy tournament! That'll teach me to try and be a girl. LOL.

Love events like these. Just brings everyone together, even if it takes copious amounts of alcohol to do it! Not that I drank alot. ahha
Woopwoop, bring on the next one!

CoA

And so two weeks have passed, and two tournaments have been played. What did I come out of it with? No trophy, two rolled ankles, a super sore butt, plus a reminder message to pay the entry fee ASAP to avoid accruing a HEFTY fine. LOL yea, $40 on top of the $50 entry is pretty hefty, POOP.
Sigh. Cannot remember the last time I played in a tournament and came out winning nothing. It's like a slap in the face telling me WHY YOU SO BAD!? I guess I need to really step it up. But just. so. ceebs! :\ I mean, its not as if I'm getting bored of badminton or anything, it still rocks my socks in just the right amounts. But I just yeah. Improvement takes work, and its not right up there on my list of priorities at the moment. DO need to improve though. Shithouse has never been so shit! Look at me, cranking the swear words and all, like I'm grown up or something. *giggles*
I did have fun though. :)

There was a moment during the tournament, actually there were a couple, where I felt like I could just cry. But I didn't. Know why? Cause I'm a boss. HAHA. But in all seriousness I literally just stopped thinking about how crap I was playing, and thought about other things I was good at. It actually works, this positive thinking stuff! You would beeee surprised. Made ME a happier chap, at any rate.
And if you don't have things you're good at. PSSH, what are you talking about, you ARE good at something. Think about yourself really hard. If you still think you're not good at anything..
You're just not thinking hard enough.

What else has been going on?
Exam in 4 weeks, time to get my nerd-dizzle glasses on and study.
But not before PUBCRAWL, woopwoop! This Friday shall be awesome. Already bought my shirt ;)