Must be the pills

Don't know why I feel so.. ELATED, at this time of the night. Just started working on my assignment again after thorough procrastination, involving my usual buddies Facebook, Twitter and Youtube, plus badminton, a shower, a couple spring rolls and some exercise involving me doing squats along to Call Me Maybe. HAHA Just imagining the sight probably sends you into fits of laughter. WELL STOP LAUGHING ITS NOT FUNNY. LOL. Anywho I was 300 words into my 2000 word essay when myuni crashed and so its time to blog.

Exciting news, my friends! My parents are leaving to Sydney for some convention thing and they'll be leaving me for a week! I smell some free-time! :D ye ye ye. Well, not TOO much free time, cause I be a good girl.
._. just thought.. what if some crazy guy reads my blog and finds out we'll be home alone... and.. and and.. D:
Don't think about it Jun, such crazy imagination *hyperventilates* Must be all the horror movies talking..

Everyday this week, I go to uni and there are hundreds of people gathered for their graduation outside on the lawns. I say to myself.. one day it'll be me, there in those wizard clothes looking all smart. LOL 'she's as loose as a wizards sleeve!' HAHAH If you get what I mean. Sorry. Dirty joke.
Anywho I got pretty scared, thinking about graduating. What will I do? Where will I go? Will I be any GOOD!? Although I've heard that even if you ARE a crappy dentist, you'll still manage to earn alot. So crafty, my people. Still.. I don't want to be a crappy anything! Sigh.. I've got to stop and think about what I'm doing before I do it more often. Especially in the lab. So many mistakes. But as they say..having a desire to learn, its both a weakness and a strength. Because for this learning to happen, you need to make the mistakes first to learn from them. Such philosophical friends I have. I doth my cap, sir.

Helping the homeless.. Sounds so generous, so nice.. so purposeful. Maybe I should be more like that, and less like 'ew'.

I have a feeling today will be a good one.

Thats what I tweeted at 7am today. I really shouldn't jinx myself like that. I swear this morning I was feeling on top of the world. And now I'm sitting in my little hole of sadness out in the middle of nowhere. Like a mole. A mole in a hole.

Maybe its the assignment that I can't seem to get past the intro of, maybe its the shit games I had at badminton, maybe my friends were being just that bit more annoying, maybe it was that run in the dark. Maybe it was you. Yeah, it probably WAS YOU.

Am I being dramatic? Making the situation look worse than it is? Is this making a big deal out of nothing? Oh- theres that saying- making mountains out of molehills. And cause today I'm a mole, that saying directly applies. But no, guys, no I'm not. You know why?
Because you're not the one in this situation, and you never have been. You're not the one whose feeling this way. Do you even realise how I'm feeling? No, you don't. Because you think you're always right. Well then so be it, according to you, this stuff I'm getting sad over- Not a big deal.

Gosh, I sound like a whiny pretentious 13 year old princess. Just note that at this very moment, I'm relatively angry.
Ofcourse, anyone reading this is going to think I am OUT OF MY MIND. Time to sleep.
Goodnight. May the wrinkles from the angry face frown not turn permanent.

Rambling on

Happy Easter, dudes and dudettes. .. Or is it? Is it Easter? Is it really? I have no idea. Never really cleared up the confusion, is Good Friday apart of Easter? Or a kind of pre-Easter thing. NO IDEA. And not even going to find out cause I like being ignorant. Even though its just one click away.. Its sexier to leave more to the imagination ;) well thaat doesn't work in this context.

What have I been up to, you say? I was talking to my friend about this just a couple minutes ago, and I told him that I haven't done anything this holidays and its already been a week. But thinking about it, I did alot.
Visited Jin's Patisserie for the first time. Although over-priced and under-served, I enjoyed the prettiness of everything. Not to mention the sexy taste of chocolate and strawberry crepes. Oh dear lord i'm hungry.

For the first time in my life, walked into an Op-shop with a friend on impulse, being too bored waiting for a traffic light to turn green. So much awesome in these kind of thrift stores, I totes want to do it again. Old trinkets and jewellery, epic children's toys- yes, hungry hungry hippo IS A BOARD GAME D: and soo many clothes, mostly 90's fashion but there was the odd awesome piece. Such as this $12 jacket I picked up! :D SO MUCH WIN. Must remember people, to wash anything you buy from thrift stores. The jacket still smells so..not Jun. But thats okay. $12!!

Went to Handorf and picked strawberries. Most of which I ate on the farm before paying for them- Oh no she didn't!-, ate at the handorf inn and sweets and Bailey's icecream afterwards. Which reminds me, i have a stick of nougat in my drawer waiting for me to finish off. LOL forgot about that..

and Today, I went with family up to Mount Lofty for a picnic/hike. Fail hike cause it started drizzling and it was so windy.. but I enjoyed it nonetheless :) Ever since my dad's stepbrother came from Malaysia a week ago, my dad's been going on about putting family first alot more than usual, but I can see where he's coming from. Don't worry parentals! We won't leave you no matter how stubborn/unreasonable/grumpy/crazy you become. Like for cereal. man.. I wouldn't want MY kids leaving me alone when I'm old.

whelp, thats enough journalling/spamming the blog with pictures for now. haha, Enjoy your holidays peeps! :)

Avocado and cheese

Woke up late/took too long in the shower, which leads me here, at 9am- blogging because I couldn't be bothered going to class late and getting told off. Hard working and dedicated to my studies I know right!? Its okay, I'll still go to lab after lunch.
Anywho.
It is now 10am, I've been sitting here for an hour and yet have not written anything of importance lol. Then again whats new? Haha..
I don't know how I managed to keep up my blog for the past year and a half, posting on average 15 blogs a month. Thats once every 2 days. Whoa. Now that I think about it, what was I blogging about? Might go back and read through some of the crap I wrote. Wait, crap? No, I mean priceless valuable Jun-thoughts :D
Going back to when others used to blog along-side me, I re-read certain people's blogs, even the ones that deleted theirs-_- *cough cough vietnam* YEH thats right, Can still see it on my blog dashboard thing.

Its funny reading through people's blogs and thinking 'wteff, this is totes not how this person thinks/acts in real life'. I guess people express things differently online compared to in person. Which is why sometimes I get surprised when I find that these people who, on the outside, seem so 'cool' and sports that 'i don't care' attitude ultimately have a very soft inside. I rekon this is true for quite a few people I know. Its a nice realisation.

SO, last day of term, what are you cool kids up to!? BY the way, Happy Birthday Yu-li ♥, my former twin.   Although I still don't get how people think we look the same. Yuli, oh em gee. -that rhymes-. Shes one of the people that have stuck with me all through highschool, listening to my stories, complaints about chemistry, boy trouble and much more. Thank you for that baby!

I kind of understand now, when the uni kids were telling the 16 year old me in year 12 that your highschool friends probably will break up when you hit uni. To that I rolled my eyes and retaliated 'nah dude, I'm PRETTY sure my group is going to stay awesome.' It's sad but somewhat true that we'd break up, although we're still friends it'd be awesome to see you guys more often. Out of our group, I only keep in touch with 3 of you. Thaaats sad. Oh no. I'm sad now. Sadness. :\

Happy 19th, baby :D

Yeh, I realise the title doesn't have anything to do with the post. SO WHAT!?
Aaaand I'm off.

I've come to the conclusion

that keeping things to yourself is never a good thing. In the end it's all just going to explode out of your brains, all over your bed and onto the floor. AND THEN WE CRY.

I've also learnt tonight that writing things out helps, definitely. But not in the context of having to finally tell the person the all things you wrote, then forgetting all that you wrote. Well done, Juniper. Juniper is a type of plant/flower by the way, i found thaaat out just today. And I also was a poet but I didn't know it. HAHA. In a good mood tonight? Pretty sure far from it. Anywho, I'd always thought Simon just made the name up, conjured it from his smart asian head.

Thinking back, I understand how it is to continue liking an ex, even after periods of not-liking them. They disappear to god-knows where for a certain amount of time and your sadness becomes not so sad after awhile and you start to pursue another interest.

Why do Ex's have to come back and ruin things?

Bringing back the buried emotions, the unsaid feelings and the what ifs.

Don't want to sound like I'm blaming them- although it does sound like I am. Contradicting myself again, heeere we go.

I have to say though. They're your ex for a reason. Sure there's always the odd couple where things were gone about wrongly and they want to patch things up, try again etc etc.. But you need to think about the reason why it went wrong.

All I'm saying- why go back if they'd intentionally hurt you? Being completely honest, they obviously didn't truely care for you if they had the capacity to do the things they did.

Sigh. Why go back when there are people around you that really do care.

I'm one to talk, had to learn this the hard way. AAANYWHO.

I'm sure its more complicated than that, so I will LEAVE YOU TO IT, jellyfishes.

Calm down, Charlie Brown!

He's so contradictory. Didn't you say when I asked that it doesn't matter who I date as long as he's good? Please. THAT has got to be the biggest lie you've ever told me.

Just today we were watching some dorky chinese dating show on tv, and I start laughing at how stupid it is, cause they're Chinese. Don't get me wrong, my chinese people are awesome, but how lame/cheap/dodgy are their reality tv shows? If you've never watched one, you're not missing out on anything other than cheap laughs at how awkward their shows are.

Whether he got angry at me for laughing at Chinese people, or whether it was cause I said 'only white people do this stuff, its totes not for Asians', I don't know. The fact is that he just blew up, and started raising his voice, telling me that I should just go marry a white person and "THINK ABOUT YOUR ROOTS". What the fudge?

I didn't even say anything remotely related to myself/dating/marrying a white person/i'm not chinese.I don't know..

Sometimes I just feel like my dad and I can't be close anymore. We used to be awesome. But now we're starting to disagree on so many things. What happened to giving me piggy backs from my room to the kitchen in the mornings? D: apart from that I got too heavy. LOL.

Anywho, I'm grateful for the lovely room with a lock that I have to retreat to when he starts getting too huffy. Plus this blog of rage I have created. Pray to buddha that he doesn't get too angry that I leave him mid-argument.

I've been getting lazy the past week. got to get back on track with the whole being good, eating healthy and studying hard thing.

And that's all she wrote

Test tomorrow that I haven't yet properly sat down and studied for, but whaaat does it matter, I'm so duh smart bean that I don't need to study. HAHA kidding. Early morning study session, yes sir!

What have I been doing tonight you say?

I bought an avocado to satisfy my cravings.

I put together my new belated-birthday-present-swivel-chair.

I went out to dinner with my family.

I re-watched 2broke girls for the tenth time.

I practiced walking in heels for 10 minutes.

LOL yeh, I did. Don't judge me. Sometimes I really think I was meant to be born a dude. I'm not gay-incase you were judging. haha I KNOW YOU WERE THINKING IT. But one thing I am sure of is that I'm totes not a heels kind of girl. Man, the agony of wearing heels you cannot imagine. I can't even describe it properly. Anywho, I wasn't even really practicing actually walking in the things, I had trouble just trying to stand without my legs shaking. Terrible. Makes me wonder how I survived those pubcrawls/dressy parties.

Aside from all the legendary events I was up to tonight, ofcourse I did the ol' blog stalking.

While reading Rosemays blog, I realised just how much I miss her.

To be honest, reading her blogs which were mostly aaall about Peter-as expected, LOL I felt so jelly. Wish I could spent that kind of quality time with you more often, poop :)

And the other friends' blog was talking about how rare it is that two people might simultaneously like each other at the same time. I was thinking about it and not going into too much detail about what happens up in here *points to head*, shall just say that yeh, she has a point. Really doesn't happen often.

But when it does happen, its something special.

SO people, Jun-lesson of the day: don't drink milk if you're lactose intolerant