Take me to the show!

Late post but better late than never. Always look forward to posting about good days. So I can remember the feels! And one day I'll look back on these good posts and reminisce.

Was super good weather for the show- first time going to the show alone with the boyfriend. 

Love that he's up for anything if its with me. And even though this was the billionth time going, it was different because it was with him. Cheese to the max. Eurgh. But this is who I am now. ahahhaha. Ultra cheese, super love, uber couple.
People keep telling me how happy they are for me, how I look so much happier than I used to. And I would agree, one hundred thousand percent :)

We spent the whole day walking around, looking at every single stall, tasting everything there is to taste- Yellow-brick road bag LOL yea, we did it. Haunted house ride, and '9D' experience. Heads up for next year, please don't go on either of them. We were thoroughly disappointed, and both times walked out dafarking at how much we just paid for nothing. hahah but no matter. Atleast we tried. YOLO ROITE!? HAHA..
Following that, Ferris wheel fun times, showbags and fireworks. ♥

No one else I'd rather spend the whole day with. LITERALLY the whole day. 9am - 10pm. Exhausted by the end, definitely.

Aaaand now to get on with exam study, hooray for my one week mid-semester break lolol. Enjoy your off time, people!

Bad day

I'm glad dear Daniel Powter made the song Bad Day a good one. Such good feels. Reminds me that my problems really arn't that bad, and that by tomorrow it probably won't even matter anymore. I instantly start singing the song in my head when I see the words bad day. Or when I'm having one.
Which was like today.
This morning rather..
Just when I feel like I'm improving and getting on the tutors good side, I go and eff it all up.
Why was I so slow today? Why did I have so many problems doing the most simple things!?
I always think to myself "The odds must have been against me", whenever I have a bad clinic session.
WHAT ODDS, JUN!?
Again, making excuses for my slip ups, for my lack of time management, for my lapse in judgement.

Bad days are good.
They kick me in the face and tell me to wake up a little bit more each time. ahhhh.

I can't even explain how stressed out I was this morning.
I started off so positively, thinking only good thoughts, planning out every little thing I was going to do..
The instant one thing goes a little south, I do another thing that makes me think to myself - What. am. I. Doing.
And then its all downhill from there. Such a vicious cycle. Theres no coming back.
3hours later, I'm still sitting there trying to construct a temporary crown for the third.. fourth.. fifth time. Things just keep going wrong. This shit never happens in the lab.
I couldn't count the number of times I thought about just flipping the table and telling the tutor to screw off. For one, why must you constantly talk down on me infront of the patient? Definitely benefits zero people involved. I'm already about to blow and instead of flicking me a couple words of encouragement, why not just intense-stare me more and bombard me with questions?
I felt like crying exactly twice.
Thats two more than I have ever felt like crying in clinic ever.
I'm usually quite level headed in clinic. I rarely panic or lose my shit. But today, oh man. I don't even know.

To make things worse- no lunch, and rushed straight to emergency unit for the afternoon session. To see more patients. Yes.. I know. Whinge whinge whinge.
I wonder if this is what its going to be like in the future. I guess these things will happen.
What can you do?
Just take a couple deep breathes and tell yourself to get your shit together. New patient, fresh start. OK.

Enough with my rage about my day.. I just had to get it out there.
In other news..

The Show on Sunday :) The only thing thats getting me through this On-week. Eurgh.. Sunday come sooner.
Also my parents are leaving to holiday in 2weeks, YET AGAIN without me D: haha I don't so much mind anymore though. I have people here to take care of me. heh. Not that I can't take care of myself. But its nice to know theres someone to lean on when I need. A super good feeling. Like nebber before.

Time to get some shut eye. Glad the day is over. :D
Have a good day tomorrow, peeps :)) And remember. No matter how bad your day might be. Someone, somewhere in Clinic 1.2 fixed pros on Wednesdays will be having a worse day. lol.

Whale you be mine?

LAAAAAME.

haha.

Gym membership ran out about a week ago- A part of me was relieved.
That guilt that I felt each passing day that I didn't go.. No more of that! Hahah.. Why have a membership if you never go, Jun? tsk tsk.
Oh wells. Went to Sunday training yesterday and then this morning went for a run.. just because. Thankful for such chilled out Mondays. All Mondays should be like today. Wake up for morning run, eat some epic meal time, go shop for abit and run errands.. lectures at 2.. spend the night with my loved ones.. ;D more like loved one. Cause there be only one. Apart from family. But you know what I meannn.

Hopefully since the weathers getting better I can start running more often. Absolutely killed my legs though. Calves, thighs, butt.. everything.
Walking up the stairs is slow. But walking down the stairs-- that is something else. Jeebus. So much effort and focus to make sure my legs don't buckle and collapse under the weight. HAHA. Like carrying a whale.
It's been forever since I've done that much exercise- training yesterday kicked my freaking ass.
HAHA A good thing I guess, then maybe I won't be so bad at singles.
I knew my badminton was getting worse, just because of the zero effort put into it.
For now I'll try to get my fitness up, so I won't fail so much, and maybe badminton will be fun again.
Always still itching to pick up a racket and have a hit.

Its quite depressing though, I have to say. Being in the middle of training and having to stop between drills to catch my breath.. Running for 10 minutes and needing to slow down and walk abit. I used to be able to smash out training sessions and run 12kms without stopping. Definitely let myself slip, without even really realising it.
Time to get my shit together and put abit more effort into it.

Completely irrelevant to topic- my hair is finally growing out. Maybe I'll stop cutting it for abit. lol but if you know me, my impatience will get the better of me, and out come the scissors.

Moon Song

I just had a 6 hour nap. Although, a nap is not a nap anymore after anything pushing 3 hours. Lets just say I had my first sleep. Haha.. and now killing time until I feel like sleeping again. Also need to study for rem pros tomorrow. Just cause I realise how little I know after almost a year of study in this area.

So- 3am and no ones awake.. What to do?

I hope I don't regret this..

Wanting to play for more people but always too shy to.. 

I sit there with the guitar/uke in my hands and just sorta but kinda not strum.. try to sing abit but get too embarrassed. 

Aside from my family I don't think I've played for many others, and even then it took me years to play anything while my parents were listening. haha.. That being said, that doesn't include the odd dental camp/ staff party tipsy jam sessions. Ah, fun times.

Anyway, no chance I'd upload onto Youtube cause .. people can be mean. So where better to show than my own blog? :)

Less chance of scrutiny, judgement, less people watching, less comment ability, no pressure to collect likes. LOL just like when I post on twitter as opposed to facebook. No one wants to hear my cool stories on facebook, but on twitter its just normal to cool-story, and people don't care. 

In my opinion the song sounded better on the uke vs my guitar, so I borrowed my brothers.

Haven't had much experience playing the uke.. I can play like 2 songs lul. Lucky for me its relatively easy to pick up the more simpler chords. 

First heard it on David So's youtube, where one of his friends sang while he played the guitar. Thought it was a cute song but didn't think much of it. Then Simon re-introduced the song cause he was learning it also. Hahah.. ofcourse I had to look it up and learn it too.. #crazygifs

Only listened to the song a couple times to get the gist, so I'm pretty sure I've got the melody wrong in about 6 different places, and the lyrics are quite possibly off also. HAHA oh well.. Got tired of singing after awhile.

Anyways, enough of my rambling- Happy Thursday! :)

Growing old

Hello lovely people!

Birthday celebrations need a blog post so here goes-

Happy birthday to meee! Well, its over now but.. the celebrations continue.

Had an epic hot pot with my family on the night of my birthday, organised a dinner with the high-school people Friday night, and spent most of Monday with my dental kids at a cute corner store cafe. 

And this Friday looking forward to having Viv and Shannon stay over at mine for a movie marathon! :D

A few photos for your perusing..

Super thanks to my Rosemay for organising the epic durian cake for my highschool dinner get-together..
Really meant alot to me, putting that much effort into my birthday. Besties for a reason.. ♥

21. People say this is the age where we finally reach adulthood. The age of responsibility. Me? I don't feel any different. Still the same crazy, immature, lame person I was 5 years back. Haha.. Good thing maybe?

I hope to be still fun even when I'm 80. 

I think the only thing thats changed is my thoughts about the future. Constantly thinking about it, and always thinking about how I can save up for it. I've started reading through my first property investment book. LOL. JUN? Thinking like an adult? What the actual eff.. haha 

I dunno, I was just talking to my parents about rental properties and decided to get a book off ebay. Stupid Jun. Could have just borrowed it from the library. Rookie mistake.. haha oh wells. Atleast I can take my time reading it.

Hopefully I'll be able to understand the process more and how to go about it, maybe get my foot in the door as soon as I graduate and find a job.

Job prospects have also been on my mind all the time.

Urgh. I just want a normal life with a cute cottage, epic husband and 3 kids. Is that too much to ask for!? Haha.. The answer is yes. That is a huge ask. And its something I need to work hard for, so hard work will be done. Mr husband, please work hard also, please be smart with your money and make better decisions than I do.

Other than that- the same durian loving, badminton playing, guitar strumming, noob of a girl.

Lost without you

So it finally happened, I lost my phone. We all knew this day would come. Anyone who knows me would tell you how much of a nob I am with my belongings, how everything I touch will instantly break or somehow turn into dust. I don't mean to be careless with my things.. I do try to be aware of my belongings and what I'm doing with them, where I put them, how I treat them. But with me, shit just happens. Clumsiness. lol. My family still calls me Ms. Drop. For obvious reasons. And I don't blame them. Haha.. Not something to be proud of, I have to say. Must address this issue before I have my first child, and accidentally drop him/her/it.
Anyways, what was I talking about?
Oh yea. Dropping things. This time instead of breaking my phone (cause it was already broken anywho), I lost it. It's probably super lonely on the 273, just chilling by itself. Poor phone. I'm sorry.
I really need to be more careful with my things. But then again, its not like I'm actively trying to lose/break/drop things.. So how to fix? Just keep trying I guess.
POINT IS. Facebook me if you need me. LOL. Cool story bro.

Forgot to mention- I passed all my exams. And also all my Clinic sessions. :D 4 written exams and 7 clinic sessions. Who would have expected me to pass them all? BUUUT I did it. And super proud of myself, really. I was so sure that I didn't have a clue. Maybe I need to have more confidence in how much I do know, how much I did study. I focused too much on the things I had yet to cover, the things I was unsure of. Which was good in a sense that I would strive to fill in the gaps of knowledge, but really made me feel super down.. alot of the time. Just thinking about the immense amount of crap I had not yet covered. But hey. Its over now. On to the next part. I must thank Simon for keeping me sane over the exam period though. I was literally about to blow. Support from friends, family, significant other is seriously one of the best possible feels. Just to know that there are people rooting for you to do well, people hoping for your improvements and success. Super good feels. :) Defs makes me want to try harder.

Badminton tournament on the weekend.. what can I say. First tournament in a long ass while where I did not win anything. No runner up, no plate winner, no nothing. Didn't get to win that pair of socks that I didn't even want. LOL. I don't feel so bad though. Its not a big deal to me anymore. I thought to myself.. I have two options. I either start trying harder and playing more, actually put effort into the sport like I used to.. Or just stop putting so many cares into my badminton care-cup.
At this point, badminton is very low on my list of priorities. Sure, I like having social hits every so often throughout the week, but I don't so much look forward to the competition side.
Who knows, maybe I'll change my mind. But for now I think my cup of care is running dry.
Table tennis anybody? LOL joke I'm ploppers at table tennis.

Happy Wednesday Everybody!  ♥

To party, or not to party

Waiting for my Tv eps to download before I cook my noodles so I thought this would be the perfect time to blog. "Jun, why don't you go and cook your noodles while you wait for your downloads to finish?" you ask?
Well, you probably did not ask but I'm TELLING YOU ANYWAY. ahaha
Cause when I prepare my food before my stuff downloads, which happens 70% of the time cause I just get too keen for food.. then I'm sitting at my desk- yes, I do eat in my room alot- and think to myself.."Damn. Should have waited til my Eps had finished downloading so I could watch as I eat." Instead, I start eating first and then later must watch the episode all alone, with nothing to do. I always feel like I could be doing something else while watching Tv.. I can't JUST watch tv, there are things to eat, books to read, objects to draw, projects to finish! :D
But yeah, that was a very cool story bro- I'm so sorry many thankyous.
On the plus side, my Eps are almost done! LOL
Efficiency Plus a hundred.

SO whats up? Finished my exams last week- and already a week of holidays has gone by.. So fast. One more week to go. Atleast I have victor harbour at the end of the week to look forward to!
Excited to take Simon's car for a long-awaited cruise, I'll get my fulls today or tomorrow I'm hoping, so I'll be able to do some of the driving. Haven't driven manual since his car got defected so I'm super looking forward! It'll be legal for me to drive it at last! Too much of a beast for P platers.

Oh hot damn. I always deny it, but maybe I do have a thing for cool cars. Prepping an awesome music track to play for the ride, and also all day long in the house cause there will be speakers there. Happy music. 90's music! Shieeet, them RnB feels.. I can't wait.

Its the 7th today, which means one more month until my birthday. I should be busy organizing a massive birthday party, like I had always wanted.. But I really, truely am not feeling it. And that should be enough to change it into something else right? Its not the usual excuse- along the lines of poor organizing skills coupled with laziness.. this year its more like- who do I even want to invite? and honestly I only want to invite a small group of people. I don't want a massive party full of people I don't even want to see, people I don't see much anyway, people who I know don't reeally wish me happiness, right?

Thinking hard about what to do now, leaning towards something small for my 21st.
They say to hold a huge one so that I don't regret it.. But why would i? If anything, I'll look back at my 21st and be glad that I spent it with only the people that matter.
What can I say.. if I'm not feeling it, I'm not feeling it.
Just like that saying- you can't choose who you love.
I'm choosing not to love throwing a big party. ahaha. First world dilemmas. ahh.