The Fringe

Hey boys and girls.
I feel like its been an age and a half since I last posted. Not because alot has happened, but because the week has gone by ohhh so sloowwwly. Between all that pre-clin uni, time just feels like it has stopped for a while. And as exciting as uni is, I was so happy to be able to sleep in this morning :)

Today was pretty fail. I somehow managed to drop my phone in the toilet as I was about to leave, and BAM! Ninja-reflexes made my hand dive into the pool of sexy and take it out. Lucky for me, I had already flushed. And yes, my phone is ok now. I saved it. I'm a life-saver. trololol

Then me, being the best future house-wife ever, had to wash my laundry twice- forgetting to put any washing powder in the machine the first time, and ironed my shirt with a hair straightener. It works, just for your information if you're ever in the same emergency situation. haha.

Guess this is just a disclaimer to anyone out there who didn't already know, if you want all THIS *points at self* then you're going to have to be preeetty good with the house work. and cooking. and life in general. haha you know, to make up for my lack of.
Or maybe I should just not be such a nob.
........nah.

I'm hoping it'll all come to me one day down the track. Women these days are more career orientated anyway, and they still get by just fine. I think.

Sturt teams tournament tomorrow. Its an all day thing too. 12-9pm. Was supposed to use today to study so that I wouldn't have to be up late tomorrow night after the tournament.. But that didn't exactly go to plan- Online shopping *cough cough* what?- LOL. Sad. But I shouldn't complain. it was a fun couple of hours. And the rest of the time, I don't even know WHAT happened. I might have taken a nap. Might have had multiple snack times. Who knows.

The title up there might infer that i have been to the fringe. LOL I haven't (I'm so deceptive). Was thinking about maybe going. Maybe would like to go later in the week. Maybe. Its the Happening thing right now in little Adelaide. Maybe I should be Happening too and go check it out. Maybe watch something for once. Maybe do something fun. maybe don't be such a toolbag. Maybe.

But obviously MAYBES always skew to the Negatory side- so maybe means no, in most cases. So no, don't think I will be going. And yes, that was pointless- SO WHAT!? I'm leaving it here. Just 'cause. SO sca-rewwww, you.
Man I'm weird tonight.

OH GUYS GUYS, there is a Fancy Burger on Rundle St! Who knew? You knew? If you knew why didn't you tell me!? LOL.
Definitely going to try it out, I heard its pretty good.
Wish I were more adventurous. and tried out more things. Thats another thing to work on. The list is getting longer people! Get crack-a-lackin'!

year-a-versary

So, Valentines day eh?

I have always been the one who doesn't reeeeally look forward to it. The day would be spent just watching other people get stuff and be loved. In highschool there were a couple times I got a pretty rose or two, but they were just from them good guy besties who worry you'll be sad that you're all alone and stab yourself in the foot. Even if I did have a boyfriend for V-day, there would always be the constant nagging in my head- did you give a nice enough present, do they truly know how much you care..? In some cases- why didn't he get me anything, why didn't he wish me a happy valentines day? :/ awks.
Following that, I woke up for 8am lecture that morning just absolutely cheesed off about it being Valentines day, thinking- its all just a scam. Just a way to jack up the prices on roses.

But I have to say it was quite a pleasant v-day this year.

I actually didn't see the rose stuck on the inside of my locker when I opened it.. Changed my clinic coat, got all my stuff ready to go, then I see it and just think '..there wasn't one of those the last time I checked...' Haha. It genuinely surprised me. And ofcourse, it made me smile.
The morning was bad. Full of boring lectures and periodontal probing. But that rose just made me happy the whole day. :)

Thought that was the end of it, but I got home to find chocolates waiting for me with my name on it. I actually what-the-effed. Jeebus, 2013 you're doing pretty good so far.
That night I found out who it was and what-the-effed even more. Didn't even know the guy properly. He was the one whose name I always forgot. I think I've said like four sentences to him in total since we met.

^pose much? YES I DO.
..I guess you never really think about those people, do you?
We all have secret crushes, those people who- when we see them we can't help but smile inside.
But all we ever think about is the guy or girl we like.
Too busy to realise- maybe someone likes YOU and you don't know it. Maybe YOU'RE that someone who makes them smile. And while you're busy fawning over that guy you're so keen on, the poor guy over there is watching you, oh so brokenhearted.
SAD LOVE STORY GUYS. ALWAYS HAPPENS. It really can't be helped. Thats why love is so stupid, thats why its such an A-HOLE.

Anywhoop. Today was the 16th Feb. pretty big day. For me atleast.. But once again I set myself up for disappointment when things didn't happen the way I wanted them to. What can you do?

Just lower your expectations, don't have hopes and be a pushover. Like me. All the time.
Gotta fix that glitch soon.. And when it IS fixed, I hope you're ready for it. Some of you are go'n get slapped.

Ps. Peach goes well with oatmeal. Try it. It blew my mind. I think I love it.

You float my steamboat

Look at all that green vegie goodness. Let me start off by saying- Happy Chinese new year, all ma' asian homies out thurr. Hope you get all the luck, all the money, all the fun, all the happy this year. Don't freak out ya'll.

This whole weekend has just been.. wonderful food. and more food. and food. SO MUCH FOOD.

Steamboat, Watermark buffet, Krispy Kremes, Egg rolls, love letters and pineapple cake. So. Much. goodness.

Its nice having the whole family together to celebrate. makes me one happy chap.

Would like to take the time to explain to you how cute my little niece Chanelle is. Well technically not my niece but.. Cousin's daughter- You know what I mean! Someone told me she would be my first cousin once removed but then another person told me that she would be my 2nd cousin. Neither make any sense and don't sound very nice so.. I'm going to call her my niece. Cause I live on the edge.

SO CUTE OH MY GOSH. She makes me want to drop out of uni and be a teenage mum. Being able to hold her and squish her chubby face.. I can't explain the happiness. She has tiny fingers, tiny knuckles, tiny toes, tiny lips.. How can something so small bring so much joy? I can't wait til she starts talking, then I can talk to her and tell her all my secrets.

I'm in Love. You see this jumper I'm wearing? I wish you could feel it. Cause it feels like motherhood material!! oh -ho-ho-ho.

 

 Trololol. Bet you were scrolling down going 'aww' at pics of the baby then BAM! Hobokins in your face on the screen^. Yeah. That is some genuine sibling love. We're so similar, but so different. ♥
New year didn't feel like new year at all. Again maybe its just that I've grown to be so emotionally detached from things that I used to find excitement in over the past few years, but hey, it was fun no matter what we were celebrating. Hope you all had a good time this weekend too, whatever you were doing.

I said I'd make time to study just in the last post. But what do ya know- ended up being more behind than ever. I blame the festivities. Lol. Going to clinic with no treatment plan. Only spells out trouble. I knew you were- trouble when you walked innnnn. haha. YES I JUST DID IT. SO WHAT!?
I'm sorry. ;D
I leave you tonight with a picture my friend sent me as a suggestion of what I should be doing when I have my own private clinic. Best idea anyones ever had. In the history of the world. And the universe. Combined. For cereal. :)

Still afraid of the dentists? ..Yes? You duh gay. But I don't blame you. ahah

Goodnight sons and daughters. Happy new year.

I got a pocket full'a sunshine

People, I just have to put it out there and whinge, the past two weeks have been terribad.

Theres just so much to do for uni. I can barely keep my eyes open throughout the day and sometimes I need to sleep so badly that I feel like I could just cry. But I don't ofcourse, cause tears of champions are expensive. Could sell my tears for a kabajillion dollars.

Being the supergirl I am, I've tried my best to make time for the other equally important things in my life, you know the drill- friends, family, gym, badminton. I make commitments that I can barely keep, and carry them out so halfheartedly sometimes. I think thats why I'm so burnt out when its only been 2 weeks in. Theres just not enough time. Although these things are important to me, I should be focusing on my studies for now. For myself.

Its not like I'm doing badly in my course or anything, I just don't have the energy to be myself anymore. I'm like a zombie most of the time. To date this week, four different people in my class have stopped what they were about to say to me to ask if I was ok and to ask why I looked so sad. Sad is not the word. Dead is the word. LOL maybe this is the reason girls wear makeup. To cover up the dead look.

There comes a time when you realise these things and just need to knuckle down and work harder. If I can work harder, I'll have more time for other things, and more importantly, more time for SLEEP.

There also comes a time when I realise that I need to stop reading the timetable wrong. JEEBUS, Do you even Uni!? *shakes head* How many more times can this possibly happen, tard!? It's not that hard to read a timetable. And it shouldn't be this hard to be a good uni kid. 

Anywhoop after another week of pre-clin, I finally got to have a catch-up dinner/dessert date with my dent girlfriends Shannon and Viv. Star of Siam, Summers eve Friday markets and Chocolate Bean. The things we got to talking about, you can't imagine. 

I'm just so happy its Friday :)

PLUS, new eps of Big Bang Theory and Suits. Chaaaching! Life is good for the rest of tonight.

 

Love is easy

Whelp, I guess its blog-o'clock. First day back at uni tomorrow, 8am start, yes sir! Kind of dreading it.. but then again when has uni EVER been fun? haha sadness.
No more rolling around the house like a potato, doing nothing.
Do I wish I had done more with my holidays? Ofcourse I do. But too late now, that time has passed by, and might I say passed by so gosh-damn fast!? It's like I don't even remember what happened. Then I stumbled upon a folder on my desktop with all these photos of me in Malaysia and think to myself 'Thats right, we went there this holidays.'
All seems kind of wasted.

Oldest brother came back for a few more days after going to Taiwan, Japan and Malaysia- what a holiday. Came back home with pre-wedding photos, as well as my bridesmaid dress and shoes. Firstly I'd like to say CONGRATS brother, its finally happening. After 11 years of dating, you've finally locked her down for LIFE. LOL. No escaping now.. you sure you want to go through with this? HAVE YOU THOUGHT ABOUT IT PROPERLY ZHEN TI!? HAHA I'm just kidding.
And that brings us to the reason for this cheesy title of this blogpost.

No couple could be more perfect. If I believed in the theory that everyone on this earth has a Soul-mate, you two would be it. And Although they probably put ALOT of effort and hardwork into making things work, they really do make being in love look easy. Jeebus!

Funny story though, I got my bridesmaid dress, tried it on and what do you know, ofcourse it doesn't fit. Hard to find dresses to fit Fudgy the Whale.
Haha. I blame asian sizing, and that lady in Taiwan who assured that a girl with my measurements could fit an M. Such lies I tell you.
From the photo it looks like it sort of fits, but then the back would not be able to be zipped up even if I lost another 5-10kg. Why? Cause my manly shoulders ofcourse. Always the shoulders. And I don't even know how to swim! HAHA.
SO I don't know exactly what they're going to do, either try to alter it, or order another size up. But nyea.. thats the thing about ordering online. I don't like to shop clothes online even now, let alone for a wedding!
I'm still not sure how I feel about the dress and how it looks. Another thing about online shopping, it can look so different from the picture. I feel like the flower-petal things at the bottom of the dress are abit of a distraction and would have been nicer just plain. But then again its not MY wedding, and as long as the bride and groom are happy, who cares what I'm wearing?

The shoes are awesome. Lucky I JUST fit the largest size they had. Bigfoot ftw. You know what they say about big feet .. wheeey.


My eyes are feeling really heaving at this point in time, so I guess its my cue to leave. Have a great day tomorrow, whatever you're doing.

Wooopdeedoo

Has anyone ever said to you that "You're not worth it?"
What is IT, when they say that?
Not worth the time, money, effort, patience, energy-?
Well today someone told me that I wasn't worth it. Not worth whatever they had to offer me.
I think if I received that kind of negativity this time last year, I would have taken offence and be so disheartened that someone would ever say such a thing about me.
This year? I don't know. It didn't affect me. Now maybe because of everything that's happened to me since then, my emotion switch has been turned off, or maybe I just don't care anymore.
People are allowed to think what they want, ofcourse they are.
All I thought when they told me I wasn't worth it was- You have the right to decide who or what is worth your time and energy. It's not MY problem.
In a way I feel like a more confident person, someone not so reliant on people's opinions and acceptance of me. They're the ones who are at loss, I'm totes worth it. ;D
I remember last year one girl openly telling people she disliked me, and I got extreeemely upset over it, even though she was almost nothing to me. Just some random girl in my year. She didn't even know me at all. What for? I was the only one freaking out about it, and while that was happening she was probably at home, kicking back and chilling with her tall glass of tea, cause thats what all the classy people do these days!
Not everyone is going to like you for you, and thats when you have to realize, that to you- THEY are not worth it.

What else is the matter these days?
Been exercising alot lately- hiking, badminton, gym, running.. And I really like it! It is the cheese to my toastie. The icecream to my cone. The ferrero to my rocher. LOL. But really I almost don't feel like I'm actively TRYING to exercise more, I guess I'm just lucky that I enjoy these things, plus alot of my friends are really into hiking and badminton.
Its just like how they say that if you choose a career in something that you enjoy, you'll never have to work a day in your life. Ofcourse I won't be choosing fitness as a career, but its good that I don't have to make exercise like a chore to be healthy or anything. Sho good! Endorphins for the epic win.

Fool

Why do I feel like I always have to make the effort.

If I didn't, would we even see each other at all?

I doubt it.

Cheerios