Resolution.

A super late happy new year to you all :) Did you make any resolutions for 2015?

Surprisingly I did not, and I'm not too sure why. Pure laziness maybe thats why, haha.. Damn. Older and not wiser, but lazier and a continual growth of my love for sleep.

Literally get home from work and crash, fall asleep for a few hours and wake up to maybe play some badminton or watch a movie if I feel like it..

Uni is starting in a little over 2 weeks time. On one hand I'm excited to start uni again, but on the other hand it scares me.. Such little time left, so much to learn and remember.

A bit sad that I didn't get to go anywhere outside of Adelaide for my holidays.. Partly my fault cause of the lack of planning and my 'meh' approach to organising anything. A little part of me feels like the holidays have been wasted, having been spent entirely in one place. Whilst my friends are off in Nepal, Bangkok, Malaysia, Cambodia, Taiwan, Korea.. I'm just flopping around the house, waiting for my next shift at the sushi store. Lol. Sadness to the max when I think about it like that. Oh wells.. next year...

So whats new? I used the money I saved up over the holidays to buy myself a laptop. After alot of debate, Simon insisted that he pay for half- Which I do feel very grateful and appreciative of- however its a different feel from buying something yourself with your own hard-earned cash. I really wanted to pay for it all, to be able to say 'Yes, I worked hard for this'- like my guitar, the first thing I ever purchased with money that I had earned. Haha.. Simon is definitely way too generous!! Not complaining though :) Appreciate him more and more errday. Cheese to the max.
Been wanting one for ages. I used to have the Surface RT, the earliest, oldest model available off gumtree cause I'm cheap with technology like that.. Thought to myself I'd use it alot since its so lightweight and easy to carry around uni.. Nekminit hardly ever use it cause its so confusing with all its touch screen-ness and its shitty keyboard... How to even take fast notes!? Haha first world uni student problems, getting too old for this. So with some help I decided on a fuss-free, super fast processor, nice keyboard and ofcourse, cool-looking light little 13'3 inch. Love it so far.. Can't get enough. Shall treat it like its my baby. Maybe even give it a name. I'll let you know and keep you updated for sure. ahahha.. ghey.

On second thoughts with the resolution thing.. There is probably one thing I'd like to try and 'resolve' or work towards improving upon this year..
And that would be my tone of voice. Tone of voice can make a huge difference in every situation. It can turn a tease into an argument, a suggestion into an accusation, a critique into a fight. Not that I've been in heaps of fights before haha but I have noticed that my tone of voice can get quite serious very quickly, and I do raise my voice at the drop of a hat, instead of keeping my cool and being calm and collected, non-judgemental and polite.
Could be cause I'm so tomboy that I've become accustomed to just speaking my mind, but I think it does affect those closest around me, my family and my other half.
I've come to notice how the WAY people say things sometimes hurt not because of the words they are saying, but HOW they are saying it.

Need to stop and think about how I handle things once in a while, hey?

Ho-ho-holidays

MAN it has been an age and a half since I last posted.. What can I say? No feels to post. Too busy I think haha.. So what has happened in the last month or so?

Well for starters I managed to pass 4th year. Thinking back on it all..How did I do it?! I don't even quite know. 

So thankful to the people that supported me throughout. Couldn't do it without you all.

I was super over the moon about my results because surprisingly they were the best results I have had since I started, and in the most difficult year as well!? And in the only year where I brought a boy home to my parents? Must mean that he's a good influence ehy? ;) hahha We were both actually scared that if I failed then my parents would think hes no good for me. Welp, no need to worry about that anymore. Mum and dad, I've got a good one.

One of my close friends failed though sadly, and I'm sure a few others also. Having to re-do fourth year is.. unimaginable. I don't think I'd be able to do it again. Like when I did the Umat, I told myself that if I don't get through it in that year, I wouldn't try again because I simply couldn't put myself through it again. The amount of time and effort and not to mention tuition fees put into year 12- wow. Traumatic. lolol 

Exactly my feels for fourth year. Who knows what I would have done if I failed. Cried my eyes out first and foremost ofcourse.

But not to worry. Its all over :) BRING ON FIFTH YEAR! I'm pumped.

The whole of December I spent alot of my time working. So much so that I started to dislike going to work. Who reeally wants to work on Boxing day? But then when I have days off work and I'm able to spend them however I want- hiking, badminton, hanging with friends, enjoying the moment- I feel like Its all worth it. Would I enjoy my free time if I had it ALL the time? Work makes me really make use of the time I have to just chill out and do what I want. So its really not a bad thing :)

Merry Christmas for last Thursday by the way people :) It was a nice one. Spent with my parents and Simon. Too bad both my brothers weren't in Adelaide for Christmas, would have been good to have the whole family around. Zhen is coming back tomorrow from Malaysia though! Excite! I actually miss him alot. Sibling bond strong.

Anywho, we cooked Christmas dinner and finally for once got my dad a present that he likes and will actually use. Chrome cast- cause my dad is so tech savvy these days. Allows you to play things off your laptop/phone/tablet and cast them onto the big screen via Chrome. Super awesome. Spent the rest of the night watching the Dubai badminton world championships. haha ofcourse we would. Asians.

Vegetarian lasagne made with three different cheeses. Asparagus, broccolini and pumpkin on the side ;)

To sum it all up, I've been having a good holiday so far :) Got home from crabbing at Thompson's beach not too long ago- first time raking for crabs. So tiring! And super sun-burnt. But hey, where the fun without a little risk. Risk of skin cancer... ok maybe not so fun. 

Happy Holidays everybody! New years coming up soon- have you made your New years resolutions!? I need to get on it.

Fingers and toes crossed.

One more exam tomorrow and I'm finally done with 4th year! .. for now. Haha.
Trying to keep a positive mindset on my results, apparently they're coming out next week. On the bright side, if I get a supp then I'm still in Adelaide :)
This year was the first time I wasn't able to finish my exam within the allocated time. Was super upset about it.. I thought I'd be okay flicking through it at the start, but every question took me a while to think about, until there was 15 minutes left and I realised I wasn't even close to the end of the book. I kid you not, my hand was cramping from how fast I needed to write and my brain was pounding from thinking at the same time. Crossed out a bajillion times because I wrote too fast for my thinking process. Haha..
I worked it out after, there were 22 pages of questions, and only 1 hour allocated. The other hour was to write 2 essays. What even. I have a feel that multiple people in our year will complain about it. I really hope they do. Because I was in such a rush, everything I wrote was very sub-standard. If only I had more time.
They say fourth year is the toughest one, and until last week I didn't believe them.
Sure, Clinic was taxing and there was so much to learn but damn, these exams really raped without lube. Fingers crossed for tomorrow!
Kind of lost the motivation to study for tomorrow though, last exam and all.. Plus we had a one week break between the 3rd exam and the last one.
Hope I won't need to re-do the year, but I guess it wouldn't be the worst thing. More experience = skill level over 9k, yea?

Been celebrating a little too early though. Straight after my 3rd exam and after smashing out my oral surg case report, I totally chilled and just spent a whole day vegging out and sleeping. Literally woke up and ate, then slept then woke up and ate again. HAHA.
Then the weekend rolled around. Felt nice to make an effort to look half-decent and go out for dinner :) Super enjoyed. Sunday morning was spent helping my dad and his volunteer group pick up rubbish around china town, then had a Sturt lunch to go to, then badminton. Only just started studying for my exam. Thats how laze I have been. Eurgh.

Can't wait until tomorrow is done!! .. I really need to clean my room. Legit pig sty. If you know me, you know I'm not exaggerating. I'm actually the biggest slob. I can leave dirty dishes in my room and not be bothered. If I'm lazy I'll just chuck my worn clothes back in the cupboard without folding them. My bed will never be made unless my dad tells me to. I can go a whole month in exam period without doing my laundry. Think about how much laundry that is.
... good luck future husband. HAHA. ♥

Gin Long tomorrow night with my high school girls. Cannot. Freaking. WAIT! Been wanting to go for ages and ages and ages. Maybe like a whole year.
Epic jun is going to explode with fun-ness and activities tomorrow at 3:15pm. Oh man. So many activities. Badminton, hiking, running, swimming, tennis, movies, cooking, blogging, shopping, cleaning, piano, guitar, eating, partying, drinking, EVERYTHING!! And so much sleep-time :')
SEE YOU GUYS ON THE FLIP SIDE! Get excited!

Oh, The Feels..

Ofcourse there had to be a 4am blogpost SOMEWHERE during swotvac. Although, Swotvac this year for us is a prawny 5 days. How is that remotely enough time for crammage?? No freaking clue.
I'm so tired, Ladies and Gents. I want to sleep, I really do. My eyes are dry, my neck is sore, my back is about to break, my butt hurts from sitting on this hard piece of crap that we call a dining chair. I should have used a cushion. You'd think that my fat arse would be enough cushion to last the study session, but today's Endodontic Adventures have lead me into a 6-hour marathon of lectures.
13 lectures for this topic, each one hour long. Ofcourse, I never do things right, I simply put the settings on Speed x2.0. 6.5 hours? I think I can manage that. But as usual, things never go to plan. Why? Procrastination. It's a serious problem, don't judge me. Suddenly everything other than study seems a whole lot more damn interesting.
So in my 6 hours I'm up to Lecture #8. I'll just put it up to my epic notes that I have taken the time to make. Yea..
4 days left until my first exam. Quite unhappy that they've put the most difficult two topics within the same exam. And then you have useless shit cropped together like Geriatrics and Community dentistry. What the hell even is community dentistry. What in the world is Population Health?
I wish I could answer that question but I really, truly cannot. Why? Because I don't give a chicken in a basket.

So much to study, so little time. As usual, as always. Whats new?

I came across a blogpost, one of the many you can find in 'Elite Daily'. Heaps of blogposts full of assery, but many I find relate to a whole range of situations I have been in, and really make alot of sense. One of them I happened to chance upon was about marriage. 15 Honest Questions The Person You Marry Should Be Able to Answer.

" #13. Will you not allow yourself to let go?

Will your partner take care of him or herself by eating healthy and exercising? Will your partner get regular checkups and take vitamins? This may sound silly, but I’ve seen what letting yourself go can do to a marriage.

Moreover, I’ve seen how not maintaining your health can make the lives of those closest to you incredibly difficult.

Yes, your family should take care of you when you need to be taken care of — but it’s your responsibility first and foremost to take care of yourself. No people should become a burden to those they love."

This was one of the points that really made me stop and think. We're now at the age or at the stage in a relationship where our health and well-being is not only important to ourselves, its even more important to those we love. Those we will be spending the rest of our lives with.
Sure, accidents happen, people get sick. Thats life. But if we can prevent sickness and mortality.. why not?
If not for yourself, but for your partner and family.
No one wants to become a burden to those they love.
So next time when you're working on a ladder and it seems kind of wobbly- get someone to hold it. If no one is there to hold it, find another ladder. Next time your eyes go blurry, go see an eye doctor. Next time you cut yourself, put a bandaid on it.

Sure, there are times when we're too busy to make appointments. But we need to start making our health a priority instead of something we just follow up if or when we have time.
..Now I just need to read this quote to my dad. Hahah

Happy Studying, everyone.

Jello

Guys, I gotta be honest with you- haven't been in the best mental state these days. Emotionally, that is.
I don't know when I became this way.. So easily irritated, easily annoyed- one comment can just set me off. It's exhausting.
Its gotten to the point where I'm annoyed at myself for being so upset all the time. I ask myself 'Why are you upset?', and I can barely answer my own question.
No people, its not PMS. Like I always say, people CAN be mad and NOT be PMS'ing. They're called feelings. If you know me, you'll probably be aware of how much it ticks me off when people just assume a girl is on their PMS if they're even the slightest bit irritated. Sure, its a possibility, but its highly insensitive to just dismiss a girl's emotions, and attribute the feelings to PMS. Maybe she's ACTUALLY mad at you, cause you were being a dumbass.
There are so many better things I could be doing, but I choose to sulk and be a knob. Even the last time I played badminton, I shocked myself at how mad I was getting at myself. Every shot I messed up, every smash that went into the net, every time my footwork failed me. I'm usually quite a level-headed person, especially in badminton.
Lately, I don't know.

Need to learn not to be so sensitive. Not to over think things. Not to make up stupid scenarios in my head. Not to take things to heart.

Need to have more confidence in myself.

Soppy stuff

Hey there everybody.
Had the urge to blog today. Could be the copious amounts of coffee I've had today, could be the lack of sleep driving me insane. Could be that I have an exam/test tomorrow and I'm still trying to finish off my notes. Every. Single. Time.
I tell myself to be more prepared, but we know its not going to happen. Somewhere between badminton, friendships, relationships, uni, Modern Family and procrastination, I'm supposed to find time to write up notes!? What is life!? haha
Dad is pestering me to be a better student, using the whole- "You know how it is, people get into relationships then fail the year.." FUUU
Dad, If I fail the year, its because I'm not smart enough. Not because I'm in a relationship.
Past years have told me that although I may not have been the most prepared, I always push myself to get the work done in time. So its not a matter of how much hardwork I put in- because I always put in approximately the same amount of effort into my work, but how well I've grasped the concepts of the topics I've been studying.
Bottom line- If i fail, its my own fault. And I will be responsible for my own slip ups and exam mistakes. Why you blame duh boyf? luls.
If anything he makes me study more. Not like in previous relationships where I'd be sacrificing study time for fun time. If onnnnly dad knew.

Simons gone off to Coober Pedy today for work. Won't be back for 5 days.
5 days. What is 5 days really? Just 120 hours, just 7200 minutes, just 432 000 seconds, Jun.
I'm at that point in the relationship where I don't want to be away from him for even one day. Two days is pushing it. Three days I'm about to crack. By five days I would have cracked like Humpty Dumpty and my egg yolk heart will be splat on the floor. And if its a hot day it would have started cooking within a couple hours. Then the magpies and ants come and eat my soul. My soul goes to heaven but then gets rejected cause I wasn't from a Free-range chicken.
IS THAT HOW YOU WANT ME TO END UP, SIMON!? LOL
Woman, what crack are you on.
Anywho, being serious now, I'm glad I've found someone that I will miss if I don't see for a even a day. Even half a day. It's not often you find someone you're comfortable with, in doing everything.
Farting, pooping, skid marks, ingrown toenails, bears-in-the-cave, messy hair, hobo clothes and all.
Sorry, I'm grossing you out. I'll stop. I promise. haha
Unhealthy relationship you say? Seeing each other every day?
I used to say a definite yes. Yes, it is unhealthy, couples arn't supposed to be joined at the hip, to be considered one Unit, to be so engrossed in each others lives. Based on past experience, you should see them maximum 3 times a week. Absolute maximum.
But hey, my views have completely changed. And yes, it may still be a little bit of an 'Unhealthy' relationship, but if you don't feel this way about someone, sometime in the prime of your youth.. then when will you ever?
Never thought I could handle being around someone so often. But its happened. Oh goodness. Sure he annoys the crap out of me some times, but thats nothing an elbow to the face can't solve. :D
I shall stop talking your ears off with boring relationship stuff.

Promise I'll give you a few months break. Hahaha Just happy is all :)

Take me to the show!

Late post but better late than never. Always look forward to posting about good days. So I can remember the feels! And one day I'll look back on these good posts and reminisce.

Was super good weather for the show- first time going to the show alone with the boyfriend. 

Love that he's up for anything if its with me. And even though this was the billionth time going, it was different because it was with him. Cheese to the max. Eurgh. But this is who I am now. ahahhaha. Ultra cheese, super love, uber couple.
People keep telling me how happy they are for me, how I look so much happier than I used to. And I would agree, one hundred thousand percent :)

We spent the whole day walking around, looking at every single stall, tasting everything there is to taste- Yellow-brick road bag LOL yea, we did it. Haunted house ride, and '9D' experience. Heads up for next year, please don't go on either of them. We were thoroughly disappointed, and both times walked out dafarking at how much we just paid for nothing. hahah but no matter. Atleast we tried. YOLO ROITE!? HAHA..
Following that, Ferris wheel fun times, showbags and fireworks. ♥

No one else I'd rather spend the whole day with. LITERALLY the whole day. 9am - 10pm. Exhausted by the end, definitely.

Aaaand now to get on with exam study, hooray for my one week mid-semester break lolol. Enjoy your off time, people!