Wooopdeedoo

Has anyone ever said to you that "You're not worth it?"
What is IT, when they say that?
Not worth the time, money, effort, patience, energy-?
Well today someone told me that I wasn't worth it. Not worth whatever they had to offer me.
I think if I received that kind of negativity this time last year, I would have taken offence and be so disheartened that someone would ever say such a thing about me.
This year? I don't know. It didn't affect me. Now maybe because of everything that's happened to me since then, my emotion switch has been turned off, or maybe I just don't care anymore.
People are allowed to think what they want, ofcourse they are.
All I thought when they told me I wasn't worth it was- You have the right to decide who or what is worth your time and energy. It's not MY problem.
In a way I feel like a more confident person, someone not so reliant on people's opinions and acceptance of me. They're the ones who are at loss, I'm totes worth it. ;D
I remember last year one girl openly telling people she disliked me, and I got extreeemely upset over it, even though she was almost nothing to me. Just some random girl in my year. She didn't even know me at all. What for? I was the only one freaking out about it, and while that was happening she was probably at home, kicking back and chilling with her tall glass of tea, cause thats what all the classy people do these days!
Not everyone is going to like you for you, and thats when you have to realize, that to you- THEY are not worth it.

What else is the matter these days?
Been exercising alot lately- hiking, badminton, gym, running.. And I really like it! It is the cheese to my toastie. The icecream to my cone. The ferrero to my rocher. LOL. But really I almost don't feel like I'm actively TRYING to exercise more, I guess I'm just lucky that I enjoy these things, plus alot of my friends are really into hiking and badminton.
Its just like how they say that if you choose a career in something that you enjoy, you'll never have to work a day in your life. Ofcourse I won't be choosing fitness as a career, but its good that I don't have to make exercise like a chore to be healthy or anything. Sho good! Endorphins for the epic win.

Fool

Why do I feel like I always have to make the effort.

If I didn't, would we even see each other at all?

I doubt it.

Cheerios

Bring on being almost 20.

Guys just for your information I have a pimple on my cheek so big that I don't even need a mirror to see it. I can see it just by looking down. Its right there looking back up at me. I bet its laughing at me.

Last post of the year I suppose!
What did I do today, on the last day of the year, you say?
Spent time with people I love ofcourse, as cheesy as it might be.

Cliche Yes, but the year really has gone by extraordinarily fast. It was an eventful year, but I almost don't remember what happened, and no I was not drunk the whole time. haha. I guess its just lucky I keep a blog to remind myself of this years events, and one day when its 2025 and I'm 32, I'll want to remember everything that happened, the good, and the not so good.
2012 was a big year, I remember being at my all time low, but also at one point feeling on top of the world. All in the same year? I think that's quuite an achievement, ladies and gentlemen! Seems like only yesterday I was freaking out about it being 2012, making my new years resolutions on the plane from KL to Adelaide.

I think its great that people make new years resolutions, you know, to try and make themselves a better person, get fit, lose 5kgs, eat well, stop drinking etc etc.. But then I think, why do I wait til new years to make these goals? It just sets me up for more-than-likely disappointment if I bomb out a couple months into the new year. Then I'll say to myself- thats ok, I'll just try again.. NEXT YEAR. I would know. I do it every year. haha sheit. So I guess what I should be doing is making small goals all the time, instead of just making one big new years resolution list.

All I can say for the coming 2013 is..
I will learn to put myself and my studies first (cause I'm worth it, thank you L'Oreal)
I will try not to be such a pushover
Peanut butter will not be eaten straight from the jar anymore

I think these goals are fairly reasonable... right? Small goals. But still goals nonetheless. And I will continue making goals as the year progresses. Happy face.

What about you people, what goals do you want to achieve?
Aaaanyways have a great New years eve.
DON'T PARTY TOO HARD
DON'T DRINK AND DRIVE
DON'T WALK INTO DARK ALLEYS ALONE
DON'T GET RAPED
DON'T BE A TARD.
Happy new year everyone.

Tis the Season.

I'm in a room full of people.

..Yet I've never felt so alone.

Maybe I wanted to be excited for Christmas so badly and was sad that I wasn't excited.

Maybe I had too many expectations, only to be disappointed. 

I really don't know where all these feelings stemmed from but, I sure hope you're having a better Christmas than I am.

Right now I feel like I'm being the biggest Grinch, the most ungrateful person and oh, so alone. 

Merry Christmas ♥.

Oodles of noodles

ALRIGHTY, finally getting out of Adelaide and off to Malaysia in the early morning. I'm excited. Are you excited? Ofcourse you are. Haha.. was getting quite bored here!
So whats been happening you say?
I passed my exams, even got a Credit, which was unheard of until now LOL. Big achievement, me thinks. Cannot describe how happy I was when I got my results back. All smiles and I ran into my room to punch my brother with punches of happiness. haha
ONWARDS, to third year, just a couple more to go now.. Gotta keep crack-a-lackin' and keep working hard. Want to finish ASAP and then I can do whatever I want. Just frolic in the woods, dance with the 7 dwarfs and find a prince. Can't wait ;)

In about 4 hours I'll be up again to take a plane to Melbourne then transit to KL. Gosh, I just want to have that feeling of being on a plane again. I miss it so.
Its gonna be funzies- only about 2 weeks, but I think thats enough for me. I'm not so much of a traveller, especially if its staying in one area for too long. I get bored so easily.

Anywho ladies and gents, I'd write more but I'm feeling pretty tired right now. LOL thats all I ever seem to be doing nowadays. Just walking around my house, taking naps everywhere.
Update you kids in Malaysia!
Give yourself a pat on the back
TOODLES!

Mug Brownies and Lee hom ♥

Ofcourse I made brownies in a mug while I couch potato. Cause why would I be healthy?

Looks like a poo, but tastes like chocolate. Easiest recipe ever by the way, Google it, cause this is NOT a food blog. haha Ah, I'm a lazy one.




I have to stop watching movies and wishing my life were one. Cause face it, I'd be one of the first to die in an action movie, the one that ends up all sad face in a romantic comedy, and the one that gets murdered in a horror movie. We've all done it before.. while watching some thriller, sitting there facepalming and thinking "I SAW THAT COMING, IF THAT WERE ME, DAMN THIS WOULD BE THE BEST MOVIE EVER."
No, You wouldn't have reacted faster than Batman. No, You wouldn't have dodged the rolling meteor in 2012. No, people don't say romantic things in real life! "Shall I compare thee to a summer's day? Thou art more lovely and temperate..." SAID NO ONE.
Lol What. A. Rager.

ON TO THE NEXT TOPIC, HELLO LEEHOM WORLD TOUR 2013!!
Wow. I still can't believe he is coming down to Australia.. My dreams are going to come true in such little time! Literally.
So I was about 7 when I discovered Wang lee hom.. Ofcourse it was through my oldest brother, I was at that stage where I wanted to be exactly like my brother, him being the model child.. I still have memories of listening to my brother sing bits off leehom in the shower. Then seeing one of his MVs just made me fall in love. Ermagerd I'll go find the exact MV that I remember watching and post it here for your sexy eyes ;)

1998 So old school. So dorky. I Love it. Brings back my childhood. Oh no.. look what you've done. Sent me on a youtube frenzy, clicking vid after vid..
If you want to hear more of my favourites try-
Ai de jiu shi ni- Ni bu zai- Hua tian cuo- Kiss goodbye- Forever Love- Bu yao hai pa- Bu wan zheng de xuan lu.
Yup, all the slow ones! As you can see I bolded, underlined and italic'd them songs so check them out, you won't regret it ♥ Will touch your heart, fo'SHIZZLE!
To be honest and I'm sure you'll all agree but his old songs were so much better than his new ones. Really hope he sings all his old ones at his concert too. FUU ANYWHO I'M FINALLY BACK TO FINISH THIS POST.
Long story short, He's coming and I'm going to him. Wait for me, my pooh bear. Oh thats disgusting. Oh just threw up in my mouth a little bit. haha nope, those words be too soggy even for this. Hahah...
Expect more updates on this Melbourne trip to come ;)
For now I have to calm my farm, and just not get too excited and explode. Lower them expectations dude, and you shan't be disappointed.
What was that saying? Have goals, but don't make expectations. TOUGH, let me tell you.
ENOUGH ABOUT THIS CHINKED-OUT GOD.
Apologies for my previous wall of fan-girlness. I had to let the world know, and you guys are the closest I'm going to get to any human contact.
Haaave a lovely evening brownies. Stay safe, don't do drugs and all that jazz! :D YAYERRR

Herp Derp

5AM and I'm- ask Katy Perry once said- I'm wide awake. haha. sad though, but wide awake.
Only one more day til the first exam, are we pumped?! We are pumped.
I'm at that point again where no matter how prepared/screwed, I just want to get into that exam hall, and do eet, do eeet! Its time for my holidays to begin, it has been long overdue.
Lucky for me, no more late-night clinic/lab sessions for the rest of my uni days. :D yay. Hopefully. If I pass. No, definitely. Cause I'm a positive raaay of sunshine.

I'm sure I've yapped on about exams on this blog a tad too much, but.. Its My blog and I can doooo what I want. SO WHAT!? LOL. But fo' real this post is about the exams, and you may or may not wish to skip through the whinging and complaining ;)
Turned my life upside down just to prep for these exams, after realizing how much I had to do still and how much time I didn't have. Haha. Basically slept when people woke up and studied while everyone was sleeping. I found that my optimal studying period was around 2 or 3am onwards, until maybe about 6 or 7. That was the time I'd actually get solid work done. I'm not sure what it was, maybe it was the fact that it was so quite in my house after everyone had gone to bed, or because there was really not many people to chat to on facebook/whatsapp/twitter. Anywho so I'd study through the early morning until about 6 or 7 then sleep until about 1 or 2. Afternoons were the least productive, so I either just chilled out or looked over the more simple stuff, or the stuff I'd already covered..
Then I'd start studying again after dinner or go to the library. Before you know it, BAM! 2am rolls around and my study would be on like Donkey Kong.
Well... that was the plan for most nights. haha. Ofcourse there were times when I just conked out and had to take more power naps.. But I rekon it was a pretty good system. Tis why I'm up now almost 6AM now.
Although moderately effective for me, I probably wouldn't suggest that you take on this retarded sleep pattern/schedule of mine when your exams roll around. Probably could have been more productive if I had just started studying a month ago. If only, if only. I still haven't covered everything required in detail so that makes me nerrrvous as a poop. Then again, when have I ever NOT been nervous about exams?

To everyone about to take on their exams, goodluck ya'll! To the people that haven't even started studying... STUDY :/ and to me..? Jun, You'll be alright.
..is what I'd LIKE to say.
The more realistic thing to say would be 'Jun, I hope you don't burn out through the exam and end up forgetting everything, panic and then start sweating all over your papers like in year 12'. hahahhah shiet. Year 12 was fun. Blue ink smeared all over my bio exam, LIKE A BOSS. Oh, which reminds me GOOD LUCK YEAR 12s! You're almost there. woopwooptotheboop!

#Currentlyreplaying Your Love by Marie. So bouncy. So happy! Guess I should add it to my mp3 thingo in the sidebar over there --->
Haaappy November!