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➽ It finally happened. After a solid year of living away from home- I locked myself out of my house. Haha And ofcourse, car keys attached to house keys.
At this point would like to give a big mention to my receptionist Jacky.
Without Jacky, work life would be alot harder. She legit is the rock to the whole practice.
One call to her and she solved all my problems- Organized a spare key from the real estate agent, and for one of the assistants Taylor to drive out to my house to get it to me.
My work mates are the best :) Seriously one of the main reasons I've chosen to stay in Port Augusta for so long. The distance is really the only reason why I would leave.
Driving back and forth isn't that tiring, but its the moments leading up to having to drive back to PA that kill me. I always have too much fun with my family on the weekend so when Sunday afternoon rolls around, I don't ever want to go back.
It's pretty much as though I have a little holiday everyweek, then drive back to reality. If only reality weren't so far away. Perfect.

I do think though, that when I finally move back to Adelaide, I want to work at a .. semi-rural/regional area. For example Mount Barker or Murray Bridge. Somewhere that is still out of the metropolitan area, but not quite a 3.5hour drive away. Haha. An hour? Easy.
Reason being because I love the feel of the country, and typically country patients are so much more patient, happy and understanding. Sure, you get crazies in every town/city/place, but lets just say there are far less of those crazies out here.
On top of that, I will definitely continue to get more experience and see more different types of cases.
But all that is a little bit into the future. When the time comes to consider leaving PA, I'll have a look at whats available and go from there :)
Just want to be able to see my family more often, that would be nice. Being away definitely makes me feel like I have taken my schooling days totally for granted- Even when I was home every single day, I spent most of my time cooped up in my room. Now that I can't see them everyday, I always wish that I could.
Life is like that song by Counting Crows: Big Yellow Taxi-
"Don't it always seem to go, That you don't know what you got til' its gone". Legit one of the greatest songs. I still remember my teacher in year 5 playing it for us and then having a discussion about the lyrics. The time of my huge epiphany. hahah. Those were the days.
100% will spend more time with my fam bam whenever I can. Muchos love. ❤

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One blog diary entry, this entire year so far. Hahah.. I can't believe how seemingly impossible it has become for me to stick to a plan or even to remember to post something. I guess the feelings just arn't quite there.
I feel like my life is just so full that I have no urge to blog about it. Surely thats a good thing :)
But I do regret not blogging more, and in more detail. One of my close friends Khoi is having his one year anniversary with his girlfriend Pris soon, and was asking for some advice on gifts. I could not for the life of me, remember what I got for Simon or what he had got for me!
I definitely feel bad that I don't remember, but I doubt he remembers either hahah..
On one hand its good, since it means there have been so many celebrations between us that I can't even keep track- but on the other hand I really wish I could remember since I know every event has been special to me. Goddamn it, Jun. Goldfish memory.
So I guess that discussion really prompted me to try and rehash the blogging feels.

I was reading back on some of my very old blogs, back to the early Uni days. I definitely feel like I had a very colorful life back then. Learning heaps, inspired by many. Hahah Its quite refreshing to read -if I do say so myself! But then there are the sad times and low moments that are good to reflect upon and be happy that I don't think that way/feel that way anymore.
My self-inflicted low self esteem would be a prime example. I am so amazed, reading back on both my public and private blogs that I could talk down on myself so badly and not only that, but do it so often. Every time some guy did something bad to me I would think "Must be cause I'm not good/interesting/pretty/smart/cool/fun enough." "Must have been something I did wrong."
HELL NO, 18-year-old-Jun. Why did I do that to myself?
I'm so happy to have come out smiling in the end though- to be honest, if I hadn't taken the chance with Simon, theres a high chance that I would probably still think that way. My self-esteem would be absolute rock bottom.
Long story short, he made me realize that I deserve to be treated well. He taught me how to be confident about myself, my thoughts and more importantly that its okay to voice them. He encourages me to be the best I can be.
Although my past relationship was a total flop, I don't blame the guy. Had I known how to use my words and communicate, it didn't have to end like it did. Brutally. haha. And sure, he could have treated me better, but I should have known that I deserved better.
Its hard to know when you're that young and in your first 'serious' relationship. The whole time I thought to myself "this is as good as it gets", because I simply didn't know any better.
Thanks to past experiences I know for sure- This is really as good as it gets. And its freaking fantastic :)

Aaaand thats where my train of thought ended up, after all that 'stalking' of the younger Me. Hahah..
Goodnight guys. Monday awaits. Hope I feel super fresh for the start of the week!

I've got a ticket for the long way 'round

Just booked plane tickets for Mum, Dad, Zhen, Simon and I for Malaysia in April!!
Literally so excited right now. I know, there is still so much time, but before you know it, April will be here and BAM! Epic holiday. haha
Been so long since we have had a family trip, I think last one was for Zhen-Ti's wedding in 2013.
And even better, I get to bring Simon along to experience all the places I love.
Mum and Dad have promised to take us proper tourist sightseeing, as opposed to every other time I've been back to Malaysia, where I've just tagged along to shopping malls and to visit family.
Super keen.
January is almost over, time is already speeding past. Chinese New Year this weekend!
In Feb we have things planned pretty much every weekend, bucks and hens nights, Birthdays..
and March is the month of Weddings- to be specific- the month of Four weddings!

I can already feel that the next couple months will be fun, exciting, busy, and for sure, pass me by very quick.

Already starting my research on the ultimate tourist areas in Penang and KL haha.

Hope 2017 is going well for everyone :)
Definitely learning to be grateful for everything I have.

MariCAR Madness

Just waiting on my friend to get her ass out of the shower so I can go over and cook her some hokkien noodles. Haha.. Cooking asian for two of the most Aussie girls I know. Should be interesting. Lol.

So I realise I missed out on updating you guys about our Trip to Japan! So we went for maybe 10 days, plus 2 days of flights to get there and back- it was a pretty impulse decision that the five of us made, because there was an epic 2 for 1 deal, where the return trip was free. How crazy is that!? Little did we realise Japan is now such a 1st world country, pricing is pretty up there for most things.
Food, accommodation, transport, clothing.. pretty much everything was about equal to or more expensive than that of Australia. So we all ended up spending alot more than we intended.. even I did, and I literally did not buy much. Most of the money spent of accommodation, trains, buses, food and souvenirs for family and friends.
Definitely worth going though, alot of culture and so many cool things to do, see and experience.
10 days was not enough. Lucky we had Chris there, because he was pretty much the organiser. Our day would be fully packed from morning til late into the night. Thanks Chris-toe-fur.

One thing I will highly recommend if you're going to Tokyo is to check out MariCar- a real life SuperHero Go Kart experience!
So its pretty much like you're playing real life Mario Kart. You pick which character you want to be and suit up into a character onesie, get your own gokart and then 8 of you plus tour guides get to ride on the streets alongside traffic. Its pretty crazy.
No helmet, no seatbelt and going up to speeds of 60-70km/h on the main roads and for some of it, highway and bridges. Absolutely mind boggling. Because we were sitting so low to the ground, even 50km/h felt like a crazy fast speed.
It was extremely well planned by the tour guides and we followed the leader in single file, while he blasted tunes from a boombox in his go-kart, and the other at the back of the line making sure everyone was keeping up. It was exhilarating. I will say, I did stop and think about how dangerous it was, seeing as one wrong move and you could get hit by a car and get seeeeriously injured.. but I couldn't not have fun. It was most definitely the highlight of the trip. Especially as we did the 2 hour tour at night and got to drive across Rainbow bridge, and had pit stops at the major sightseeing areas.
Daaaamn. If you go to Tokyo and don't check it out.. definitely missing out.
And it wasn't even a super expensive activity, I think I paid $60AUD for 2 hours total? Money well spent hahah.
Triple thumbs up and five stars to MariCAR! :)

Chicken Potato-chip Sandwich.

Good evening Ladies and Gentlemen!

So Christmas is coming, just around the corner- as all my patients keep reminding me.. haha. The first year that my parents won't be around, I think they're off to China?

But all is good. I love being around family this time of year but it does mean I won't be so busy, trying to spend equal amounts of time between Simon's family and mine. Coincidentally Simon's parents are also overseas in HongKong at the moment and will be for a few more months.. So, more time to spend with friends. Yayer!

Haven't planned to do much as yet, I've put a $50 limit on our gifts to each other because we are both trying to save as much money as we can.. Christmas last year was an expensive one since I wanted to buy something for everyone in both families lol. Roookie mistake. 

Will get about 10 days of holiday for Christmas and New years. Not too bad, some people only get the public holiday off. Also planning on taking parents back to Malaysia in April, Simon might come too.. and I can intro him to my Mum's side of the family O: Shit is getting real. Hahah..

I'm not sure what it is, maybe its because people are spending all their money and time on preparing for Christmas, but past couple of weeks have been extremely quiet at work. For example tomorrow I have just two patients booked in- my worst day so far.. plus ofcourse any emergency patients or walk-ins. On one hand its good cause I get to just chill out.. but on the other hand, I am purely commission based so.. No patients, no money. haha shiet. I think I'm going to treat myself to a bit of a sleep in, gym and then go in to work for lunch.

My assistants want me to try a Chicken chip sandwich.. They were horrified that I hadn't tried one before.. hahah Not sure, maybe its a Port Augusta thing. Pretty much just chicken flavoured Thins chips inbetween buttered bread. I don't see the appeal but I guess I'll find out tomorrow!

Goodnight everyone, sleep tight. Hump day tomorrow, the weekend is almost here! Going to the Christening of the Daughter of Simon's boss on Saturday. Definitely will take an Uber there cause Greeks.. they love to party. Last time they threw a Christening for their baby boy we had suuuuch a good time. Friendly people, good food, great range of alcohol ;), picked up the traditional greek dance from randoms and just had a ball. I didn't know anyone there but I still had an awesome time. Greeks are just so inviting. Excited. hahah. 

Dear Diary,

I feel bad for not speaking to you for so long. Back in the day I used to write pretty much every day. I always looked forward to coming home and writing about my day. Or even procrastinating at uni and writing it there! haha..
I guess it was because back in those days, I didn't have many people I could talk to about my day. Sure, I had a boyfriend at the time, but that particular guy had no interest in the things I got up to, maybe thats why I felt like I had to turn somewhere else. And where else to turn but here? I didn't feel like I needed to bother my uni mates or other friends with my shit haha.
And now that I think about it, I'm so thankful for Simon always being there when I want to talk, no matter what he's doing or how his day is going, he always shows interest and empathises with me.
So why the need for a blog if I can just pour my heart out into him? Haha That guy.

Everytime I look back onto my blog though, I feel a sense of disappointment that I haven't been able to keep up with it lately. Blogging was my daily past time, my therapy and really it was my friend. No other friend listens as well as this blog, right?

I love looking back on all my posts, on occasion I get caught up in my memories and spend hours reading about the Me I used to be.

I feel like I'm still very much the same, with minor changes- slight improvements? Hopefully. haha.

Although now I have my other half who is basically my lifetime blog, I would love to continue doing this, seeing as I've already been at it for a good 5 years. We'll see how we go shall we?

It definitely won't be in order, and I doubt I'll even make sense from time to time.. But i'll do it.

It's just R e a l i t y.

I'm barely 23 and here I am, curled up in bed, shedding tears over finance, housing, family and the future.
I feel like a massively large amount of responsibility has just been thrown onto me for some reason.
Why? More money, more problems I guess.
I have no issue with helping out my family but what my parents are asking I think is abit too much.

Problem is that I feel like I absolutely cannot disappoint my mum and dad. I just can't bear it.
Even just thinking about disappointing them makes my heart ache. Thats the problem with me, isn't it.. its that I'm overly-sensitive.
It might sound like I'm praising myself for being kind and caring and blah blah blah
But no. I wish I weren't so affected by other people's feelings. I wish I cared a lot less. Its mentally exhausting, being so easily hurt all the time.
Even at work, if I see someone who looks poor and tells me that they can barely afford treatment, I charge much less, or sometimes don't charge for certain procedures. For what? They probably don't even realise or don't appreciate. I only hurt myself, and my income.

I desperately need to learn how to desensitise myself, and quickly. You don't get far in this world by being soft.
I know family is always number one, but sometimes I need to stand up for what I want, and what's best for my future and my future family...

Fingers crossed, let this not be another worthless rant where nothing ends up changing.