What's up, Chupachup?

Nothing much, which is why I haven't had the urge to blog.. which is weird let me tell you. I used to be like Oh -nothing to do right now, BUT I CAN BLOG :D

Haha.. What happened Jun, what happened :\

SO going to u19s in a couple days, I can't believe its already time. It's all happening so quickly. One week of holidays has passed already, still have not accomplished anything.. Although I did take up jogging again, which is good. Want to be lookin' good for the Summer, ya know? ;) winkadoodle. Ah.. wish I had a treadmill, I'd totes feel alot safer when running.

I swear I get too paranoid when I'm out at the park alone.. So many bushes.. someone is probably hiding in there just WAITING to burst out and BAM! Raped. LOL i joke.. but still.. scary.

I guess this is where I face my fears. Or just run alittle faster around the bushes.

So what's new? I've made plans to be a good student next semester. And these plans are not going to fall through. No distractions. Except for badminton. Cause badminton is cool. HAHA. yeeee! I totally had too low of an expectation when it came to studying last sem. Need to raise the bar and strive to improve!! Gosh, sounds so idiotic. BUT YEH.

AND did you know, I found the coolest thing ever.

Yeh thats right, YOU BE JELLY. The head opens up and you put your toothbrush head inside. Now my toothbrush bristles will never be susceptable to dirt fallage. HAHA if that even makes sense. Teeheeee. Love it :)

Guess I should get packing for Friday. BYE my sexy munchkins.

why do I always end up with odd socks.

Counting sheep does not work at all when you're trying to make yourself fall to sleep. I doubt counting ANYTHING will make me sleep. I think I might have some kind of disorder.. whats that called. Where you think of something, then get distracted by something else and then keep getting off track with your thoughts until you don't even remember what you were thinking about in the first place. I'll start off thinking about the sheep, and end up thinking about my 7th birthday when all I got were books. Yeh. off track indeed.

Holidays are FINALLY here, and although yes I was waaaaiting for this period to come, its finally here and yet, what am I doing with my life? Lol. I'll tell you.

Last night I watched 'Did you hear about the Morgans?" which I might add is an awesome sauce movie, so funny yet romantic :) Ended up sleeping around 3am, woke up the next day at 1:30pm, ate lunch, bummed around my house and got bored, then went back to sleep at 3pm until dinner. Ate dinner, watched another movie and then slept. LOL so much for a wonderful holiday!

I might as well think up some things/projects/missions to go on before I die of boredom.

Tomorrow I start off with doing my laundry. HAHA indeeeedy.

I'm thinking.. I'm in desperate need of a change. To do something different. Get a haircut, re-arrange my room, buy some new clothes, try out different styles, hang out with different people once in a while. I don't know. Do you ever feel at some point like you've gotten bored, seeing the same person in the mirror everyday? HAHA surprised the mirror hasn't cracked. Must be a sturdy, sturdy mirror LOL joke. I sometimes wish i could change the way I look. Just a bit. But don't we all?

eurgh

There comes a point where you really DON'T care about doing well anymore, and I think i've just about reached that point. I mean, last exam is tomorrow, and here I am, curled up in my parents bed on the itouch blogging. I came home from watching badminton yesterday which was pretty epic I must say, and since then I have literally been in bed the whole time. So much for Productive study, ey? Yup I'm down with the flu, fever, or whatever that shivering cold feeling is even though I'm sweating. guess tomorrow will be fail, but as I said, I don't care anymore. Which is pretty sad :/ all my positivity has just leaked through the pores of my skin, turning into oil covering my forehead. Ew. Oh well, at least it's giving me a nice red flush on my cheeks :) like I'm wearing blush or something. Haha it's not all bad. It's been a while since I've been sick like this, my parents are overacting a tad, giving me every Chinese herb tea and medicine in our cupboard.. But I'm thankful for that, they even let me sleep in their bed cause my electric blanket blew up.

there is no more motivation

Had my first exam yesterday, and today spent the day lying around in bed, watching movies and literally doing Nothing. It's okay.. I'll be back to studying tomorrow hopefully, for my last exam on Tuesday.

Or I might go watch some badminton. Hahaha.. City of Adelaide is on right now.. gah. I wish I were playing. Still, would be fun to go watch some of the semi-finals and finals.

Oh, going to the temple tomorrow to visit my grandma. Its been two years since she passed away. Gosh.. two years passed by really fast. It really doesn't feel like it's been that long! I remember finishing my Physics exam in year 11, and i came home really happy that it was over, turned on the tv and just finished eating instant ramen. Then my mum called, and I ran to my grandma's house.

sigh.. it's really the shittest feeling in the world, just standing there watching ambulance people rush around, knowing that there is nothing you can do to help.

Two years later, and I still miss her :(

Doesn't that get you thinking.. all the people you love now, will be gone sooner or later.

Holyshizzle, such a depressing post, I'm sorry!! But i guess thinking about it.. be good to your family cause they won't be around forever. and you WILL miss them when they're gone.

Although I say this, I know I'll probably never stop being an annoying sister. Hahah :P

Kind of a sad time

Ahhhh sheit. Homo exam tomorrow.. I guess i'll just get it over and done with :\

You know, as tank as I am, I feel like crying my eyes out. Get me a bath and I'll fill it with tears, then you heat it up and soak yourself in my sorrow.

Then when you come out of the bath you'll be all salty and then you can lick it off.

Which reminds me, I haven't had a bath in a while. No, i'm not dirty.. I mean BATH bath. The real stuff. Lol. People that take baths always tell me how soothing it is to just lie in there with your favourite book, light a few scented candles and chill.

But knowing me, i'd probly accidentally burn my hair in the candle, and get my book all wet- Which I did, a couple years ago when I tried reading the first book of Lemony Snicket's 'A series of unfortunate events' in the bath tub. LOL fail of a girl.

I don't understand how you can read in the tub. I was thinking.. maybe wrap the book in that waterproof plastic stuff? Those plastic book covers that you used in like year7. Hahaa. innnteresting.

OK, enough Jun.-_-

Wish me luck, please!

...i think i just broke my electric blanket. Well thats not a good sign.

get me a hot, steaming cup of awesome.

The awesome purple mug has been with me for quite a while- as long as I can remember, unlike many other things/humans, it's been with me through thick and thin :')

It's only been a day since my last post, but my body clock is so effed that it feels like its been a while. I'm going to post again anyways. LOL post after post of talking about nothing significant.. feel free to just exit the page.

Was thinking about something someone said, they were talking about how many tweets, and facebook statuses that are about relationships. When you have a fight with your boyfriend, he cheats on you, he leaves you.. and then you go and tweet about it. Constantly. Countless posts. Being all custard tart and saying how much you miss those times together. I mean it's totally fine to want to express your emotions.. but why do it in public :\ do you want all the people in your life to know how much you miss him, how much you're hurting inside.. how weak you are?

It's obvious why you post those statuses up, its for him to read, for him to acknowledge, in the hope of him realising how wrong he was in leaving you and for him to come back. But do you really think he's going to come back after seeing how much you still want him after he hurt you? What is that, thats just lack of self-respect. It also boosts his ego, his head will inflate like a fat chicken.

I'm not saying that I wouldn't post the odd tweet/blog about being sad after a break-up, but you know, thats why I have the other private blog, thats why I have friends, thats why I have a super brother who listens (Y).

Ps. new song in the side bar.

mid JUNE

It's now 2am, why did I just wake up? Because the whole of saturday i did SHIT ALL and so now i'm paying the price. How I wish I could be in bed right now.. with my electric blanket and all my cute soft toys. Do you still cuddle your soft-toys to bed? :) I bet you dooo.

Totes can't wait til this exam period is over, well who can? After exams I have things to do, a life to live, people to catch up with. I'm sorry if you haven't heard from me in a while, I know that 'studying' is not a good enough excuse!

Lacking motivation to study. The only reason I try to study is to please my parents. I would hate to be the one to tell them I'm repeating. Or mabes I can pull a Zhen and just change courses before I get my results back. HAHA. Jokes zhen- I know you did well.

Looking forward to going away to Sydney this year for under19 nationals. My last one, ever! I guess you could say I'm a senior. A shit one at that. ahahha can't believe how much I haven't improved since the last time. Maybe there is only so much I could have improved, and I already reached that limit. Or maybe I just don't train hard enough. LOL yeh thats it. I remember going running and doing sit ups and pushups before bed for u17s, thats when I started to get better at the sport. Which reminds me of the time I didn't have anywhere to jog cause my parents were still too paranoid to let me run in the streets-

Being the smart girl I was, I thought, maybe I could jog in circles in my room. HAHA. So i was running around in a small circle in my small room and then rolled my ankle. DON'T ASK ME HOW, i'm just that co-ordinated. LOL good times. anyways..

What happened? YEAR 12 HAPPENED. lol fag. Then the potato-ness kicked in.

hoo my gosh, i think there are like breadcrumbs inbetween my laptop keyboard, it's getting harder to type with my lightning fast typing ;) gah. this is gayness to the max.